Why Can't I Trust Anyone - No, Not Even Me?

Listening to: I Wanna Do It All by Terri Clark
What I Should Be Doing: Driver's Ed
I'm Also: Wishing I was hanging out/laughing with my friends, wondering why I think about TAI... so much, being thirsty, playing solitaire, writing crud that's pretty dang awful, and waiting for someone to talk to me on Yahoo! Messenger

Super Bowl tickets range from $4,000 to $8,000. I had no idea they cost that much. I wish my sister didn't have softball tryouts, 'cause the Packers are playing and that's my dad's favorite team. He says seeing us is better than football, but I still feel awful and angry at my mom.

Uhm. I want to buy Interventions and Lullabies by The Format and Like Vines by The Hush Sound and some CD by Cobra Starship. I need more money, especially since I'm planning on buying at least two tickets to the HONDA CIVIC TOUR.

I forgot to lend Manola my Powerspace CD and give her back The Higher's CD that she bought but I have.

My bangs are bothering me. I want a haircut.

My laptop's burning my leg right through my jeans.

Okay, another song lyric I wish I wrote:
"We may suffer together, but we all die alone."

I wish I was happy.

I'm lonely.

Funerals are awful, and so are the quiet car rides home. Especially when you're leaving family that you won't see again until someone else dies.

What's wrong with me?

Secondhand Serenade is my new favorite band. Except not. But they make up a good portion of my 'Calm Songs' playlist, and I've noticed that I've been listening to that more than anything else recently.

Feet = Cold

Listening to: Insurance? by The Higher
What I Should Be Doing: Working on my write up for English/reading poems/sleeping. [I think this is the same as last night!]
I'm Also: Wishing I had socks on, reading Sorcery 101, uploading a video to YouTube, and checking Facebook.

I miss listening to my old music.

I also miss the way I felt last year. When I first got my laptop, there was this distinct feeling I associated with it, but it's completely gone now. The feeling, I mean. Not the laptop. xD I feel like I was a lot happier last year. I had less to worry about and more to be happy about. I dunno why I'm being so whiny/mopey this year when this was exactly what I was trying to avoid last year. : I spent all of freshman year trying to make myself less complainy.

Didn't work.

I discussed my 12 husbands with multiple people today. =) Always fun.

That's what helps that very long hour of fitness go by.

People take me too seriously. xD I wish they wouldn't. Save us all a lot of trouble.

I miss Allie. She's not online. =( She's always online by now. And I have lots of hatemail to show her. *proud grin*

Yes. I had something to say.

I've forgotten.

Vedanti brought us Jesus cookies today. :)

I’m Awful At Negotiating

Listening to: Hospital by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Nothing, actually. =)

Yeah, I’m SO glad it’s Friday. I was gonna bring my laptop to school with me today so I could update my blog and post my concert pictures on Facebook, but I completely forgot this morning. x( Ah well. I’ll have internet on Monday, so that’s good, I guess. =P

This week felt like forever, except not, at the same time. =D I can’t believe the concert was only like three days ago. My ears stopped ringing today!! I just remember Monday being AWFUL. Like HORRIBLE. Like wanting-to-cry-or-kick-something-in-every-class-before-lunch terrible. Which is pretty bad, since we have the majority of our classes before lunch. Yeah. And last weekend didn’t even really count, ‘cause I went to my dad’s [which means I spent most of Friday and Sunday on planes or packing.] And Tuesday = concert day, so that was awesome, but for EVERY DAY since then, I’ve had no internet, so it’s felt like FOREVER.

Okay, whatever my siblings and their friends are doing outside my room is getting REALLY annoying. It’s just like the bass of a really loud song or somebody hitting the wall or something. It’s not even consistent. x( It’s just random... Rawr. Shuddup.

I love The Used. I really wanna see them live. =)

Yeah.

I’m so bored that I’m doing my homework. Seriously. It’s Friday night and I’m doing my CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK. I don’t do homework until Sunday night. Really and truly. This is what happens when I have no internet connection. *dies*

I wanna look up Sherwood and Armor for Sleep, ‘cause they were both amazing at the concert on Tuesday, but I can’t until we get our internet back. I don’t really wanna go spend $30 on 2 CDs if I’m not gonna like ‘em... xD

Anyway.

Uh. Give me an amazing concert, three hours at the venue before the band comes on, six AA batteries, and a camera, and I’ll take 159 pictures. =) That’s what happened on Tuesday. And I’ve been trying to get the pics to my friends ever since, but it’s hard since I have no internet. Wah.

I have to film my first real video this weekend. Well, I’ve actually already filmed footage for two projects, but this is the first assignment I’m working alone on. And I have no tripod. Fun! xD Actually, I don’t care, ‘cause I’ve been filming for almost three years without a tripod. So. :)

I just realized that of my 183 videos, a HUGE percentage was made during this year and the last. High school, basically. =D Kinda funny. Though I’ve definitely gone away from editing. I usually just talk to the camera and then post it on YouTube. Yeah. :D

Yeah, I wrote this on Friday, October 5, but it's going up on the 10th, because I only have internet at school.