Why Can't I Trust Anyone - No, Not Even Me?

Listening to: I Wanna Do It All by Terri Clark
What I Should Be Doing: Driver's Ed
I'm Also: Wishing I was hanging out/laughing with my friends, wondering why I think about TAI... so much, being thirsty, playing solitaire, writing crud that's pretty dang awful, and waiting for someone to talk to me on Yahoo! Messenger

Super Bowl tickets range from $4,000 to $8,000. I had no idea they cost that much. I wish my sister didn't have softball tryouts, 'cause the Packers are playing and that's my dad's favorite team. He says seeing us is better than football, but I still feel awful and angry at my mom.

Uhm. I want to buy Interventions and Lullabies by The Format and Like Vines by The Hush Sound and some CD by Cobra Starship. I need more money, especially since I'm planning on buying at least two tickets to the HONDA CIVIC TOUR.

I forgot to lend Manola my Powerspace CD and give her back The Higher's CD that she bought but I have.

My bangs are bothering me. I want a haircut.

My laptop's burning my leg right through my jeans.

Okay, another song lyric I wish I wrote:
"We may suffer together, but we all die alone."

I wish I was happy.

I'm lonely.

Funerals are awful, and so are the quiet car rides home. Especially when you're leaving family that you won't see again until someone else dies.

What's wrong with me?

Secondhand Serenade is my new favorite band. Except not. But they make up a good portion of my 'Calm Songs' playlist, and I've noticed that I've been listening to that more than anything else recently.

Antimatter?

Listening to: The fan on my laptop
What I Should Be Doing: Reading Act 3 of Macbeth, reading 50 pages of crud about Augustus for Latin, reading two chapters for WHAP, doing my Algebra 2 homework
I'm Also: Checking my e-mail and playing solitaire

Okay. We were in the library on the computers today in my history class, and my friend Allie went to www.yahoo.com [instead of planning her timed writing like she was supposed to be doing. xD I didn't do mine either...] She said something about really liking that one of the featured articles was called "Clowns 'Universally Disliked' by Children." There were a few other articles, including one called "4 Factors That Make a Man Want To Marry." We were joking around and told her to click on that. She did.

This is what came up:

Four factors that make a man want to marry:
1. Antimatter
2. Antimatter
3. Antimatter
4. Antimatter

I think this is hilarious. xD Also, I Googled 'baby noises' while we were there. Try it. The second link is a "Baby Noises Soundboard" and I find it hilarious for some reason. =D

[What's up with the color? It came out black and wouldn't show up so I had to change it to gray...?]

I'm a loser.

Apparently my friend's CD came in a day early, because Brent left me a voicemail saying it came in today, but it wasn't s'posed to be there till tomorrow...?

AT&T Sucks and Andy is Jesus

Listening to: Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace
What I Should Be Doing: Writing Inner/Outer circle questions for World History AP

I love Powerspace. Like times a million.

I almost went to a Motion City Soundtrack today. But my mom said nooo. So wah. She also said no to Fall Out Boy, Powerspace, and This Providence. Yeah. Sucks. FOB was yesterday, Powerspace woulda been this Sunday, and This Providence woulda been like two weeks from now. I'm sad. =(

I'm mad, 'cause my Digital Video teacher made us all get external harddrives, but she didn't give us ANY requirements/expectations, so my step-dad and I just guessed when we bought one [it was $130 and one of the cheapest ones.] And she's all "No, it doesn't work; get a new one." She finally gave me like 2 actual requirements, but that's it.

Okay, the three weeks after October 2 just freaking SUCKED. I've been having a pretty good week this week though. Hopefully, it'll stay good. I think it's good 'cause it's finally getting colder. =)

I'm tired and I don't think I'm gonna go trick or treating for Halloween, which makes me really sad. I wanna go, but it wouldn't be fun by myself...

I'm going to my dad's this weekend and then my friend's staying with me for like 2 weekends in a row. xD Whoo, man. Naw, I'm actually happy about that. =D

My Sherwood CD and my Farewell CD come in tomorrow. =) So happy... I just have to go pick 'em up and I'll be happy for like a week. xD The CD store always makes my day/week better. Like, I hadn't gone in almost a month and then I went on Monday and I was just like "I had/am having a really good day." Was fun. :D Then my friend and I scootered around the intersection by my house for like an hour. *giggles*

Anyway. I should go work on the Inner/Outer circle crud.

The Lyric ‘Pizza of My Eye’ Really Bothers Me

Listening to: I’m Like A Lawyer with The Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You) by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Homework and SLEEEEPING!

I realized about an hour and a half ago that my digital video project is due tomorrow, not Friday. So I did the entire project by myself, while my storyboards like REQUIRE two people. So my footage sucks. A lot. And she’s going to hate it, because she already dislikes me and there’s so much wrong with it that it’s not funny. I’m totally done with that class. Seriously. It’s only like a month in and I’m freaking SICK of it.

I still have so much to do, and I’m tired, and I really shouldn’t have school tomorrow anyway, but I do, because the school’s MEAN and HATEFUL. Columbus Day = holiday, right?? Not according to them. *sulk*

My room’s a disaster area right now. It kind of makes me happy.

Usually, I get through school and homework and the stupid junk by thinking “I just have to get through this and then I can go this concert” or “I need to do this and then next month that CD comes out.” But I have NOTHING to look forward to at this point. And I don’t have internet. So I’m kinda upset. Actually, I wanna cry. =(

Thanksgiving break is the only thing good right now. And that’s forever from now. x(

Um. I guess I can’t wait till we get internet back. But I’m not really excited about that. I’m more mad at Geek Squad because they’re freaking idiots.

I’m really tired.

Um. Yeah.

I had something else to say but I forgot.

I love Fall Out Boy more than I should.

I want to see these bands live:
§ Powerspace
§ Motion City Soundtrack
§ This Providence
§ The Used
§ Fall Out Boy [again]
§ The Academy Is... [As many times as possible, man. They’re AMAZING live.]

Yeah.

Yeah, I wrote this on 10-7-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.

YOU LOOKA LAKA MAN FROM CIWWAF!

Listening to: Stand Down by Echoing August

I'm currently writing a review for American Graffiti, which, by the way, we had to go to like four movie stores to find. It took us like thirty minutes. Which stinks. xD Either all the copies were out or there was only a tape, and our VCR died a few years ago. =) It's a pretty good movie, though really confusing, and I still don't know some of the character's names. I watched it with my mom, who hadn't seen it, and she missed a few scenes and it was almost impossible to explain them to her since so much happens so quickly. :P I liked it though. Now if I can finish up this movie review...

School's boring. And icky. And I hate clubs. But the french teacher looks like this guy from Cute Is What We Aim For. So that makes me happy. And I know a kid named Jesus, which TOTALLY makes my life. Though he seems kinda annoying. Oh well.

I can't wait for the new Motion City Soundtrack CD to come outtt. I really wanna buy it. I should probably find out the name, 'cause I've forgotten, and check to see which day it comes out. [I've heard the 15th and the 18th.] I like the few songs I've heard... I can't wait to check it out though. Wish they were coming to my city, not just the one an hour away.

Which reminds me. I was gonna go to a Powerspace concert on a Friday night, and I was really excited about it, but it turns out I'm going to my dad's that day so I can't go... I'm really upset that I can't go, 'cause it'd be really neat to see them live before they get too big. *sigh* Ah well... Hopefully I'll have another opportunity. =(

Yeah. I'm gonna go since it's like almost midnight and I'm not done with homework and I totally should be. Ah well. Tomorrow's gonna suck, but I'm SO glad it'll be Friday. *dances* SOOOOO glad. I've been waiting for Friday all week.

McDonalds Gets Old Fast

Listening to: Slow Down by The Academy Is...

I know I should be excited for the The Academy Is... concert, which is in almost exactly a month, especially since I've been listening to a lot of TAI's music recently, but instead, I'm in an awful mood, 'cause I really want to go see Fall Out Boy again, but the closest concert to us is an hour away and on a Tuesday. Which is not cool. At all. Especially since my parents would let me go if I wouldn't miss school. So I've been trying to convince them that missing like two days really isn't that big a deal, but they don't listen to me very much at all. So I'm really not happy right now. I know that sounds selfish, but they won't even give me a good reason besides "you can't miss school" and then they don't even tell me why I can't miss school. Ugh. And then my mom threatened to not let me go to the TAI concert, so I'm in a really bad mood now.

Happy Labor Day.

We went to my grandparents' lake house this weekend and went tubing. My hand kept rubbing against the handles and I have like four places where I've rubbed the top few layers of my skin off. Well, kind of. xP It hurts pretty badly. I'm supposed to keep it moist and keep bandaids on it, but I'm in too bad a mood to care at the moment.

Yeah. I still have to finish a book for English tonight, so I should probably get off the computer and read, but I reaaaaaaaaaally don't want to. I also need to do like two more problems for Chemistry... I need to staple stuff into my AP World History spiral too, but I don't want to go get the stapler again. Homework's the main reason I haven't posted anything here in like a week. That and just stress. I've had a pretty awful first week.

I need to go pick up/buy This Providence by This Providence from the CD store, 'cause it came in on Thursday. I just haven't had time. I was going to go today, but I wasn't sure it would be open. I hope I have time tomorrow.

I really don't think this year's gonna be fun at ALL. It's started out badly and it just keeps getting worse. *throws sarcastic confetti*

Sorry. I'm in a reaaaally bad mood right now. I haven't said that yet, have I? I'm sure you didn't notice. =P

I think I had something else to say here. Well, I've forgotten it, my feet are cold, and my hands hurt. Oh. I have to bring my camera tomorrow for Digital Video and shoot some scenes for our first project, which REALLY stinks. I don't want to do it at all. I'm like dreading it. I'm afraid I'll mess up or do something wrong or something stupid. Well, it's not like she really taught us how to do anything.

Bob's Too Special For Blue Eyes!

Listening to: Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace

Sleep, Everyone is probably one of my favorite songs off The Kicks of Passion. I don't really know why. =) It just kind of makes me happy. I also really like Right Here, Right Now, Dancing in the Future, Be Aggressive, and Amplifire. Okay, fine, I love like the entire CD. xD Except for I Met My Best Friend in Prague and This Is Not What You Had Planned. But still. =P

Day 2 of school went kinda boring. It was better today, but it feels like we've been at school for like a week or two already. So much homework... I should be doing my English homework right now, but I've been putting it off 'cause it's kinda confusing. Ah well.

My school shoes came todaaaay. They look very uncomfortable. =D

Nothing else happened today. Fun, right? xP Well, some bad stuff. But I'm not gonna worry about that now. Too much to worry about without all that. =)

Oh! My concert tickets came!!! I'm really happy about that. They're purdy and shiny and green. =) I'm excited for that concert. It should be awesome. *happy* Only 2 months left. xP

Everybody Hates Me by The Crash Moderns is an insanely amazing song and it wakes me up really fast. xD

Too many smileys in this one... Rawr.

Should Bingo Be The First Song Or The Last?

Listening to: Give 'Em Hell, Kid by My Chemical Romance

I usually would wait to post this later, but since I'm not gonna have time tonight, I should probably do it now. I'm having my buddies over, but it turns out some of 'em can't make it. That makes me very sad. =( Anyways. I'm making 'The Most Obnoxious Birthday CD You've Ever Gotten' for my friend's birthday, which is kinda what the party's for. :) She gets old tomorrow. xP Anyway. I have to keep this one short, 'cause I have to help my mom set stuff up in 30 minutes and I need to review and see which order the songs should go in. xD Least obnoxious to most or vice versa? :P