So, Is This What You Wanted? Too Bad, It's What You Got.

Listening to: You're Making It Come Alive by My Favorite Highway
What I Should Be Doing: B.S.ing my assignment for digital video, studying for my WHAP/Algebra 2 tests, doing Algebra 2 test corrections, doing my Chem problems, sleeping
I'm Also: Talking to Anna and Whitney, wishing YouTube would load, trying not to cry, and missing Allie

I kind of hate life right now.

I've sworn off all mainstream music that I don't already know about. [I'm still gonna listen to FOB, but I'm not going to check out Cobra Starship or any new bands.]

I can't talk about music to anyone. Ever. It only leads to crappy crappy situations.

Plane rides suck.

So does digital video.

And life.

I'm getting really sick of everything.

Every single one of my classes is pointless. Seriously. I can't think of ONE thing I'll actually use EVER.

Guitar class has become more like a therapy session.

I hate crying, but I've done it so much this year... I miss last year so much it's not even funny.

I hate musically diverse people.

This weekend was awful, especially because we had Friday off. I just slept through it and then went to the airport.

Complete crap.

I want three CDs, and I'm going to have to walk down to the CD store alone to order them.

I spent the last of my iTunes money on Thursday night.

The more I think about it, the worse I feel.

I guess I should stop thinking. I mean, that's how I got through two funerals in two weeks.

I want to go to my concert. I'll be hanging out with two of my best friends and seeing one of my favorite bands all at once, so it should be good. It better be.

I'm sick of feeling so alone.

My mom blames everything on my dad, but... I don't think that's the problem. I like my dad better than her.

Why was I so happy last year? I don't even remember being happy before that.

The Red Hot Chili Peppers suck.

I - I need to do my homework.

But I don't know how to correct Algebra 2, do any of the Chem problems I have left, B.S. digital video, or study for history.

So.

Yeah.

Stalker flight attendants are really scary.

Australia is Full of Awesome

Listening to: ...But What Will They Say? by This Providence
What I Should Be Doing: Studying for my English test, my Latin test, my Chem test, my WHAP inner/outer circle, and sleeping
I'm Also: Talking to my friends [actually, I'm watching them talk about the poems on the English test and not contributing] and wishing my tummy wasn't bothering me and charing my iPod

I miss Lindsey and Lauren.

This week sucked.

Tomorrow's gonna be worse. =) 3 tests and an inner/outer circle and a filming assignment.

I’m Bad at Making Friends

Listening to: I Caught Fire by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Rereading the Chemistry chapters

Um. We went to a Chinese restaurant for dinner, and I annoyed my mom to the point where she wouldn’t talk to me anymore. xD But I didn’t do it on purpose. I was just trying to look for the best in people, rather than automatically assuming they all suck. *nod*

I asked her what she would do if she had never seen me before and I asked if I could hug her. She said she’d probably walk away [like Jack the camera guy. Though all I really wanted was a picture with him... Or just of him. xD] and then she was all “Think about their daily lives and how people are always like ‘ILOVEYOU!’ and how they’re just using him and stuff.” [I had told her earlier that I yelled “ILOVEYOU” to one of the guys that was setting up for TAI.] I was like “How am I using him?!” and she’s like “Well, you don’t really love him; love’s not a one way relationship” or something and I’m just like “... I know that. I didn’t tell the camera guy that I loved him, I just wanted a picture of him.” And she goes into how they’re all on drugs ‘cause it’s easy and how they all get married and then get divorced ‘cause they don’t try or something. And I’m just like “Yeah. But you don’t know that the camera guy’s on drugs or that the band even is.” And then my brother’s all “You just said that because they’re famous and that’s the only reason you like them.” And I’m like “NO! They’re crazy awesome and they’re really not all that famous and they’re not even IN THE BAND!”

Basically everyone got ticked off.

And then I said that I hated college and asked if I had to pay for gas [which I was really just wondering about] and by the end of it all, my mom was really mad. Yeah.

I dunno. I’m not gonna assume that everybody in every band is on drugs. I’m gonna give them the benefit of the doubt. That’s kind of unreasonable anyway. I dunno. It’s dumb.

My brother’s fortune cookie fortune was “If your cookie is in two pieces, the answer is yes.” I love that SO much that it’s not funny. xD

I’m getting my wisdom teeth, which SUCKS. There’s this flap of skin and it’s all raw/sore and it hurts. =( And today just kinda stunk. X(

I’m totally gonna bring my laptop to school tomorrow to post all the crud. Except I can’t get to YouTube or check my mail. But OH WELL.

If we watch my footage tomorrow, I’ll scream.

My dogs chewed up my cell phone. *face* I’m mad. At least it still works.

I wrote this on the 8th. It's going up on the 10th. Deal.

I Know Who Pete Wentz Is. *beam*

Listening to: Dear Maria by All Time Low
What I Should Be Doing: Homework. x(

Okay. Today was bad and good at the same time. I forgot to bring my camera to Digital Video this morning, which was okay, since we didn't need to film anything else, but I had to move a ton of stuff, which was really boring. And then in English class, I realized I didn't know any of the stuff that we were s'posed to look over. 'Cause I didn't. 'Cause I wasted time instead. Anyway. My next like three classes were boring, including free period. Lunch was good but my stomach hurt afterward. And then chemistry was boring. But history was better, 'cause I didn't do anything but look over my test and goof off with my friend. xD Then I had to go retake a chemistry test. [I got an 85 on the first one, but I felt like I coulda done better.] I think I did better the first time. But oh well. xP

Uh. Yeah. I had to borrow my friend's cell phone 'cause I forgot mine at home [because I dropped it in the dogs' water bowl yesterday and had to air it out]. Turns out my mom's already at school so I open my locker to grab my books to go home and there's this envelope with my parents' names on it. I took it and gave it to my mom right then... And it turns out I have detention. Because my parents get me to school late. Like, I'm ready at 7:20 and they don't leave until 7:40 and I get to my first class at 8:01. *dull look* 2 minutes late 2 days in one week and they give you detention. At 7 AM. I'm not even usually awake then.

So. I have a TON of homework to do, especially for history since I blew that class off today.

Yeah.

... Bob the Butler is Like My Favorite Movie Ever.

Listening to: Those Days You Felt Alive by Spitalfield
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping

Yeah, school still kind of stinks. I can't wait till Friday... Last week felt like FOREVER and the weekend went by WAY too quickly. =( And we almost had like four tests this week. [Tuesday - Latin and Chemistry; Thursday - AP World History; Friday - English] It's only the fourth week of school... I guess it's not that bad, but it still seems like a lot. Especially since we started reading Beowulf like over the weekend and we're having a test over it this Friday. We didn't read the whole thing, but we read a ton of it in like three days. That scares me.

Latin just sucks. A lot. Unreasonable grading, awful tests, stupid assignments, etc.

According to my friend, I'm very opinionated. I knew that and I didn't. xD I didn't realize it showed so much... Well, I guess it can't be that bad since I've got friends. =P That just kind of surprised me.

Uh. I can't wait till this weekend. I feel like I have plans for some reason, but I can't remember them... 3 PM on Friday can't come soon enough. This week's taking a long time.

We're filming in my digital video class. I like the class so far, but I really haven't learned anything except the technical names for everything. Like 'extreme wide shot' and 'medium close shot' and 'roll tape' and 'gaffer.' I'd like to learn about composition and lighting and the equipment and how to do like everything. xD But it's still good. I have fun. =)

I really want Psychostick's CD... Beer and ABCDeath both MAKEMYLIFE. ILOVETHEM. And I really like a lot of the other songs tooo... xD I wonder if I can order that... =)

Yeah. I got a $50 iTunes gift card yesterday [I begged my parents to go to the store and buy me one with my own money and it finally happened] and spent it REALLY fast. I love my music. xP I actually want like 7 more songs now, too. xP That's sad... Ah well. Christmas's coming up. Okay, not really.

Christmas and Thanksgiving break will be SOOOO nice.

Okay, I'm gonna go to bed, I think. xD

I really like the song from the 'ska dancing' video. *happy*

Ecce Romani!

Listening to: Point of Extinction by Motion City Soundtrack

I haven't posted on this in like years. xD It's mostly because of school and not being online much this weekend. That's because of watching two and a half movies with my sister and babysitter with a ton of junk food while my parents were gone this weekend. =P Anyways.

I have two tests tomorrow. Chemistry and Latin. I'm kinda worried about both. I think I'll do okay on Chem, but I know Latin's gonna SUCK since the teacher doesn't teach us. -.-

I got the new Motion City Soundtrack CD today. Even If It Kills Me is pretty awesome. xD It technically comes out tomorrow, but the CD store had it today at 4, so I bought it. I like it a lot. =)

And I can't see Powerspace, which REALLY stinks. I almost went, but my mom thinks there will be "bad people" at the bar where they're playing, so... Wah. Not fun. x(

Yeah, I'm too lazy and don't have enough time at the moment to write anymore so I'm leaving. Back to reading Beowulf. =P

McDonalds Gets Old Fast

Listening to: Slow Down by The Academy Is...

I know I should be excited for the The Academy Is... concert, which is in almost exactly a month, especially since I've been listening to a lot of TAI's music recently, but instead, I'm in an awful mood, 'cause I really want to go see Fall Out Boy again, but the closest concert to us is an hour away and on a Tuesday. Which is not cool. At all. Especially since my parents would let me go if I wouldn't miss school. So I've been trying to convince them that missing like two days really isn't that big a deal, but they don't listen to me very much at all. So I'm really not happy right now. I know that sounds selfish, but they won't even give me a good reason besides "you can't miss school" and then they don't even tell me why I can't miss school. Ugh. And then my mom threatened to not let me go to the TAI concert, so I'm in a really bad mood now.

Happy Labor Day.

We went to my grandparents' lake house this weekend and went tubing. My hand kept rubbing against the handles and I have like four places where I've rubbed the top few layers of my skin off. Well, kind of. xP It hurts pretty badly. I'm supposed to keep it moist and keep bandaids on it, but I'm in too bad a mood to care at the moment.

Yeah. I still have to finish a book for English tonight, so I should probably get off the computer and read, but I reaaaaaaaaaally don't want to. I also need to do like two more problems for Chemistry... I need to staple stuff into my AP World History spiral too, but I don't want to go get the stapler again. Homework's the main reason I haven't posted anything here in like a week. That and just stress. I've had a pretty awful first week.

I need to go pick up/buy This Providence by This Providence from the CD store, 'cause it came in on Thursday. I just haven't had time. I was going to go today, but I wasn't sure it would be open. I hope I have time tomorrow.

I really don't think this year's gonna be fun at ALL. It's started out badly and it just keeps getting worse. *throws sarcastic confetti*

Sorry. I'm in a reaaaally bad mood right now. I haven't said that yet, have I? I'm sure you didn't notice. =P

I think I had something else to say here. Well, I've forgotten it, my feet are cold, and my hands hurt. Oh. I have to bring my camera tomorrow for Digital Video and shoot some scenes for our first project, which REALLY stinks. I don't want to do it at all. I'm like dreading it. I'm afraid I'll mess up or do something wrong or something stupid. Well, it's not like she really taught us how to do anything.