My bands are outgrowing me.

Most depressing thing ever.

Spider Solitaire Is My New Addiction

Listening to: Not Your Concern by The Hush Sound
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping
I'm Also: Looking up tour dates for bands

It's effing 4:46 AM, and instead of going to bed like a normal person, I'm reading random stories, debating on whether to go eat Frosted Cheerios dry or not, and checking out bands' MySpaces/official sites for tour dates.

MySpace sucks, by the way. The whole "let's automatically play music WHOO" thing makes me angry. It's like, "WTF IS THAT MUSIC?!" and then "Gah, now I have to turn off my iTunes or like wait for the player to load so I can effing turn it off." Plus the whole site's so SLOW... Though that may be my internet right now. =)

Jesus, "Official Fall Out Boy Website." Do you not understand "ENTER WEB SITE" or something?

Invisible Monsters is an awesome book. Goodbye Blues is an awesome CD. Horton Hears a Who is an awesome movie. The end.

I should go pick up my CD tomorrow/today, but screw that.

Stop being hungry, tummy. You were all "WKLTJLKJT!!! NOISE FEED ME!" during 2nd effing period, during my effing test. You were so effing loud, too... And I totally had effing breakfast, so I don't get it. It was an effing overflowing bowl of Frosted effing Cheerios. Sorry, I'm done. Carlos bought me a scone [haha, free food is awesome] and then Whitney and I went and talked to Whitney's brother and Rachel. Who's moving. POOP.

GOD! LOAD THE EFFING PAGE, MYSPACE! ARE YOU THAT STUPID!? HONESTLY!?

*implodes*

God, my sleeping schedule's gonna be screwed up. =)

You know who should tour? The Used. Seriously.

I'm seeing The Hush Sound and Motion City Soundtrack and Panic! at the Disco in like two weeks. I honestly could care less about Panic! though. I'm way more excited for the first two bands. I mean, I love Panic!, but they're new album is seriously just not them, so I'm kinda disappointed with them. Yeah, I like Pretty. Odd. for the most part, but it's just like "oh, new songs to listen to occasionally" not like "OH MY GOD, MUST PLAY OVER AND OVER BECAUSE IT'S SO EFFING GOOD." I had to listen to the effing CD like seven times before I decided I liked it. And I loved their first CD...

GOD, INTERNET. STOP BEING RETARDED. *hates the world*

I'm sleepy. HAPPY 5 AM!!!

[THIS WAS WRITTEN FROM 4:46 TO 5 AM LAST NIGHT, BUT IT WOULDN'T EFFING POST.]

"Hilighters are Shoes, Silly!

Listening to: With Me Tonight by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Working on Driver's Ed or my multiple school projects
I'm Also: Talking to ANNNNNA! and updating Facebook and TRYING to post a video on YouTube and being mad at the Honda Civic Tour manager people.

About the Honda Civic Tour:
"The tour starts on April 10, 2008 in San Francisco, CA, but start planning your musical rendezvous ASAP."
Okay, seriously, they want us to plan our "musical rendezvous ASAP" but they don't have tour dates yet. So how do we plan without tour dates...? WE CAN'T. DUH. Sorry. =)

Anyway. Uh. I think that's all I wanted to say. Yes.

No.

Today, we went and saw Brent. [A.K.A. M.E. and I went to order Cobra Starship's first CD for Anna/buy Boys Night Out's self-titled album.] And M.E. brought this huge leaf with her when she met me at my house because it landed at her feet. So I carried it all the way to the CD store, then to Smoothie King [so M.E. could get her joint and tissue repair fix], then to McDonalds [to get an ice cream cone for me], and then home. And it's on my wall now. But anyway, she was all "Isn't this leaf huge? It fell at my feet so I picked it up and was all 'dude, it's HUGE.'" And Brent's like "Maybe it means that big rewards will fall at your feet!" or something. Later, we were talking about that and M.E.'s like "Way to be a 'the glass is half full' person, Brent."

And then I started thinking that a lot of people in the music industry are "the glass is half empty" people. So. Yeah.

Uh. I'm tired. :)

Today, I met the mom of a guy in a band opening for a local band that I kinda like. I was all "They're opening for them!? AWESOME." But I don't like the band enough to go to their show and I'm lazy. And, yeah.

YouTube's mean.

I don't like getting compliments. At all. I don't want people saying, "You're so pretty!" or "I can see you doing great things!" or "That video's so amazing!" or "Those lyrics are hilarious!"

Hunter's in my room, lying on my bed near my feet, listening to my iPod. And I'm listening to iTunes on my laptop and typing this while he randomly tells me things about venues and bands and "stoner songs" and stuff.

Now my five year old cousin's in year writing on my wall and asking me about how I built one of my science projects. He's cute. =) Though sometimes I don't wanna hang out with him, 'cause I like being alone more than like anything else. I think. I mean, I love my friends and I love throwing parties for my friends [I think I get that from my mom] but I don't like talking to people I don't know very well and a good portion of the time, I don't wanna talk to anyone at all. I don't know, it's weird.

I'd much rather throw a party for one of my buddies than throw a party for myself, which is weird. I tend to dislike my own birthday parties, unless somebody else throws them. I don't want to have a sixteenth birthday party. I'll take seeing Panic! [I REFUSE TO DROP THE EXCLAMATION POINT NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY.] on the Honda Civic Tour as a birthday party. xD

Hunter left.

It freaks me out how many of my family members/my parents' friends watch my videos. Seriously.

I've been biting my tongue a ton when I chew gum lately. It's weird.

Well, My Weekend's Ruined

Listening to: You're Crashing, But You're No Wave by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Absolutely nothing unfortunately.

Today was awesome. And then I got in the car to come home.

AND IT STARTED SUCKING. TIMES FRICKIN' TWELVE.

Like, I actually had fun at school. I yelled at a bunch of idiots in the lunch line [there were about forty (okay, so there weren't FORTY. BUT THERE WERE A LOT! xP) of them all trying to shove their way up the lunch line and they were getting really obnoxious, so... xD] in front of the dean of students and he didn't care. xD I coughed on the ones that didn't listen to me, also... It was fun. I always have fun yelling at people. Seriously. It like makes my day about twenty times better. 'Cept for the adrenaline rush after. =)

We did absolutely nothing in History, which is also freaking amazing. That was fun, too. xD And then I went to English with my group to finish our questions for a socratic seminar and after stress and craziness, we goofed off and it was fun too. :P

And I was really looking forward to this weekend [ALL FRICKING WEEK TOO] because my friend was s'posed to stay with me [my parents and my siblings were gonna go on a mission trip], and we basically hang out and do random crud, and it's AMAZING. xD They're usually my favorite weekends like ever. =P

And then I get in the car.

And my friend's all "Yeah, your mom apparently didn't go on the mission trip." And I'm like "... WHAT!?!?!"

And, not even kidding, it ruined my day. My sister's supposedly sick [which, seriously, I don't believe, because I've seen her running around, and she's eating candy and buttered pasta and just CRUD, while her "stomach hurts." LIES.] and that's why my mom's staying. But really, my friend coulda watched her. We usually both stay anyway...

Since then, I've been yelled at for not having all A's [IT'S A FRICKING FINE ART. DIGITAL VIDEO DOESN'T MATTER.] and I'm going to be forced to watch a movie with my sister and mom later and I don't want to. At all.

Plus, my friend was s'posed to stay with us next weekend too, but my mom's all "I might stay home" so that really sucks. And "I might stay home" pretty much means "I'LLBEHERE." And that sucks because we never see my friend. =(

And I ranted about my mom not letting me go to a venue unless the band was Christian and how she thinks "tattoos = bad people" and how I've missed like four concerts in the past week 'cause she wouldn't lemme go to any of them. And even THINKING about that makes me want to cry.

Like, I freaking live for concerts and music and that crud. I don't care about like anything else. [Pathetic, but completely true.]

So. Today sucks.

I’m Bad at Making Friends

Listening to: I Caught Fire by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Rereading the Chemistry chapters

Um. We went to a Chinese restaurant for dinner, and I annoyed my mom to the point where she wouldn’t talk to me anymore. xD But I didn’t do it on purpose. I was just trying to look for the best in people, rather than automatically assuming they all suck. *nod*

I asked her what she would do if she had never seen me before and I asked if I could hug her. She said she’d probably walk away [like Jack the camera guy. Though all I really wanted was a picture with him... Or just of him. xD] and then she was all “Think about their daily lives and how people are always like ‘ILOVEYOU!’ and how they’re just using him and stuff.” [I had told her earlier that I yelled “ILOVEYOU” to one of the guys that was setting up for TAI.] I was like “How am I using him?!” and she’s like “Well, you don’t really love him; love’s not a one way relationship” or something and I’m just like “... I know that. I didn’t tell the camera guy that I loved him, I just wanted a picture of him.” And she goes into how they’re all on drugs ‘cause it’s easy and how they all get married and then get divorced ‘cause they don’t try or something. And I’m just like “Yeah. But you don’t know that the camera guy’s on drugs or that the band even is.” And then my brother’s all “You just said that because they’re famous and that’s the only reason you like them.” And I’m like “NO! They’re crazy awesome and they’re really not all that famous and they’re not even IN THE BAND!”

Basically everyone got ticked off.

And then I said that I hated college and asked if I had to pay for gas [which I was really just wondering about] and by the end of it all, my mom was really mad. Yeah.

I dunno. I’m not gonna assume that everybody in every band is on drugs. I’m gonna give them the benefit of the doubt. That’s kind of unreasonable anyway. I dunno. It’s dumb.

My brother’s fortune cookie fortune was “If your cookie is in two pieces, the answer is yes.” I love that SO much that it’s not funny. xD

I’m getting my wisdom teeth, which SUCKS. There’s this flap of skin and it’s all raw/sore and it hurts. =( And today just kinda stunk. X(

I’m totally gonna bring my laptop to school tomorrow to post all the crud. Except I can’t get to YouTube or check my mail. But OH WELL.

If we watch my footage tomorrow, I’ll scream.

My dogs chewed up my cell phone. *face* I’m mad. At least it still works.

I wrote this on the 8th. It's going up on the 10th. Deal.

The Lyric ‘Pizza of My Eye’ Really Bothers Me

Listening to: I’m Like A Lawyer with The Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You) by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Homework and SLEEEEPING!

I realized about an hour and a half ago that my digital video project is due tomorrow, not Friday. So I did the entire project by myself, while my storyboards like REQUIRE two people. So my footage sucks. A lot. And she’s going to hate it, because she already dislikes me and there’s so much wrong with it that it’s not funny. I’m totally done with that class. Seriously. It’s only like a month in and I’m freaking SICK of it.

I still have so much to do, and I’m tired, and I really shouldn’t have school tomorrow anyway, but I do, because the school’s MEAN and HATEFUL. Columbus Day = holiday, right?? Not according to them. *sulk*

My room’s a disaster area right now. It kind of makes me happy.

Usually, I get through school and homework and the stupid junk by thinking “I just have to get through this and then I can go this concert” or “I need to do this and then next month that CD comes out.” But I have NOTHING to look forward to at this point. And I don’t have internet. So I’m kinda upset. Actually, I wanna cry. =(

Thanksgiving break is the only thing good right now. And that’s forever from now. x(

Um. I guess I can’t wait till we get internet back. But I’m not really excited about that. I’m more mad at Geek Squad because they’re freaking idiots.

I’m really tired.

Um. Yeah.

I had something else to say but I forgot.

I love Fall Out Boy more than I should.

I want to see these bands live:
§ Powerspace
§ Motion City Soundtrack
§ This Providence
§ The Used
§ Fall Out Boy [again]
§ The Academy Is... [As many times as possible, man. They’re AMAZING live.]

Yeah.

Yeah, I wrote this on 10-7-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.