Operator, I Can't Hold Much Longer

I was listening to Nobody Puts Baby in The Corner, and my tummy just got warm. Like, happy warm on the inside. Patrick's voice makes so dang happy for no effing reason.

I miss those sugar cigarettes. Y'know, that candy you buy in convenience stores, with the red tips?

Sometimes I hate how much music influences my moods.

It's quiet now, and I'm sad. Not crying-sad, just calm-sad. It's my default mood or something.

I don't want to do my math homework, but I have guitar tomorrow. Wednesday night's the only time I do my math homework at home.

Pencils are fun to chew on...

I'm plannin - never mind, I can't do anything this weekend.

Next weekend, I'm planning on walking to the CD store [with someone maybe? I wonder if I could bring my dog. Does Brent let dogs in there...?] to buy/order a Something Corporate CD. And then I'm going to the bookstore across the street to try to find Invisible Monsters, 'cause I'm a loser and want to read that. I blame Motion City Soundtrack, but whatever.

let'sgooncemoredowntothedancefloor

Powerspace Snap Bracelet is the only whole song I heard by Powerspace on Saturday. I'm glad I left though, 'cause listening to this makes my stomach drop, while their other songs are still good.

I'm so so sick of the YouTube community.

I just realized I'm typing this in "Edit HTML" mode. God, I miss 8th grade computer class.

I realized the other day that I talk to myself because I want someone to talk to. And that makes me feel so empty.

I had sushi last night, and for about six hours after dinner, I could taste it in my mouth. I should've gone with the shrimp in those california rolls.

I wish I understood the term 'time management' and that my videos turned out the way I wanted.

I should do math instead of sitting here looking at the blank paper.

Why is it that on CDs, the non-singles are always better than the singles...?

heymisterDJyou'vegottaputarecordonyeah

So tired all the time.

Overdramatic Kids + Internet = The YouTube Community

Listening to: Lullaby by The Cat Empire
What I Should Be Doing: Doing homework, sleeping
I'm Also: Trying to upload a video to YouTube and replying to comments

I chew on things I'm not s'posed to chew on. xD

I overreacted, and I still love Powerspace. I'm gonna try to see them next time they come [which may be never, but whatever], 'cause yesterday was just bad, and I think that's why I was so angry/disappointed.

My back hurts.

SCHOOL SUCKS.

I should be doing homework right now but I'm not. Don't you feel special? :)

Jack's Mannequin and Something Corporate are both really awesome, and I wish I had figured this out earlier.

"Ainslee, Erase That Right Now!"

Listening to: It's Not Over by Secondhand Serenade
What I Should Be Doing: Charging my phone or sleeping
I'm Also: Talking to Allie, yawning, playing Solitaire, hiding from people, writing

I'm s'posed to go to the mall tomorrow with my buddies. =) I hope we do, 'cause I haven't seen Lindsey and Lauren since before finals. And that sucks. So. Yes.

Dang it, I'm going to go charge my phone.

Secondhand Serenade's like my new favorite band, except really not. I've just been listening to slow[er]/calm songs recently.

Sometimes I worry about society. There are really good examples of what's wrong with society on YouTube. There are also really good examples of what's awesome about society on YouTube.

Umri.

Some people are just so brilliant that it just makes me enormously happy. Those people just make my day. They're usually the hysterically funny people too for some reason.

Supposed To Be There Too [Mike Park] = Brilliance. The beginning reminds me of a world in Kingdom Hearts. I can't remember which one it is though.

Poop.

I swear I'm actually like four years old.

Okay. Sure, breast cancer needs to be cured. BUT so does every other kind of cancer. What about the people with stomach cancer? The ones with tumors in their brains? What do we do with them? Ignore them while we raise money for the people with breast cancer? It's great that the Susan G. Komen for the Cure has raised awareness and money. But seriously. How many times have you heard about lung cancer in the past month?

Poof.

Wegetbyjustfinehereonminimumwage.Ifloveisalabor,I'llslavetilltheend.

Diane Wilson came to talk to our school the other day. She was interesting to listen to, but I'm not sure I agree. I really don't know much about what she was talking about though, so maybe that's why. Uh. She talked about going on a hunger strike for 4 months, and NOBODY got that. For the next two days, EVERYONE was talking about how it was possible to not eat for four months. Someone said they switched out. Which I think is stupid and not impressive at all. Someone else said they just drank liquids. Which is more impressive unless the liquids are milkshakes and smoothies. Another person said they just ate bread and water. Which is not impressive, because they're still eating.

Eh. I don't understand myself.


ButI'msotiredofdaysthatfeellikethenight.

Where's the Fan Remote When You Need It? *mental breakdown*

I'm Listening to: ...But What Will They Say? by This Providence
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping.
I'm Also: Playing Solitaire, reading fanfiction, and replying to comments on my YouTube videos

I have one video with 49,487 views at the moment. It also has 205 comments. It's been up for about a year and two months, and I'm still getting comments on it... It's kinda annoying, but hey, at least people are watching it, right? xD

One.

I love getting feedback on my videos, especially from insanely brilliant people. Seriously, man. I didn't know people were these dang awesome. :)

Two.

It's refreshing to find people that don't use capitalization/punctation AND are actually intelligent. It's amazing, actually. Restores my faith in society.

My alt key's falling off still.

I think Slash is overrated, and I'm addicted to absolutepunk.net. Even though I don't post. I just read the forums... Sad? Oh yes.

My sisters just came in, covered me with circular stickers, and then left.

Uh. Yeah.

In the dreams I've had lately, I text my friend Lauren. It's weird. Maybe I feel like texting her?

2:27 - 2:36 of Poetic Tragedy is BRILLIANT. I ABSOLUTELY ADORE IT.

Ugh. I can't stop saying brilliant...

"Hilighters are Shoes, Silly!

Listening to: With Me Tonight by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Working on Driver's Ed or my multiple school projects
I'm Also: Talking to ANNNNNA! and updating Facebook and TRYING to post a video on YouTube and being mad at the Honda Civic Tour manager people.

About the Honda Civic Tour:
"The tour starts on April 10, 2008 in San Francisco, CA, but start planning your musical rendezvous ASAP."
Okay, seriously, they want us to plan our "musical rendezvous ASAP" but they don't have tour dates yet. So how do we plan without tour dates...? WE CAN'T. DUH. Sorry. =)

Anyway. Uh. I think that's all I wanted to say. Yes.

No.

Today, we went and saw Brent. [A.K.A. M.E. and I went to order Cobra Starship's first CD for Anna/buy Boys Night Out's self-titled album.] And M.E. brought this huge leaf with her when she met me at my house because it landed at her feet. So I carried it all the way to the CD store, then to Smoothie King [so M.E. could get her joint and tissue repair fix], then to McDonalds [to get an ice cream cone for me], and then home. And it's on my wall now. But anyway, she was all "Isn't this leaf huge? It fell at my feet so I picked it up and was all 'dude, it's HUGE.'" And Brent's like "Maybe it means that big rewards will fall at your feet!" or something. Later, we were talking about that and M.E.'s like "Way to be a 'the glass is half full' person, Brent."

And then I started thinking that a lot of people in the music industry are "the glass is half empty" people. So. Yeah.

Uh. I'm tired. :)

Today, I met the mom of a guy in a band opening for a local band that I kinda like. I was all "They're opening for them!? AWESOME." But I don't like the band enough to go to their show and I'm lazy. And, yeah.

YouTube's mean.

I don't like getting compliments. At all. I don't want people saying, "You're so pretty!" or "I can see you doing great things!" or "That video's so amazing!" or "Those lyrics are hilarious!"

Hunter's in my room, lying on my bed near my feet, listening to my iPod. And I'm listening to iTunes on my laptop and typing this while he randomly tells me things about venues and bands and "stoner songs" and stuff.

Now my five year old cousin's in year writing on my wall and asking me about how I built one of my science projects. He's cute. =) Though sometimes I don't wanna hang out with him, 'cause I like being alone more than like anything else. I think. I mean, I love my friends and I love throwing parties for my friends [I think I get that from my mom] but I don't like talking to people I don't know very well and a good portion of the time, I don't wanna talk to anyone at all. I don't know, it's weird.

I'd much rather throw a party for one of my buddies than throw a party for myself, which is weird. I tend to dislike my own birthday parties, unless somebody else throws them. I don't want to have a sixteenth birthday party. I'll take seeing Panic! [I REFUSE TO DROP THE EXCLAMATION POINT NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY.] on the Honda Civic Tour as a birthday party. xD

Hunter left.

It freaks me out how many of my family members/my parents' friends watch my videos. Seriously.

I've been biting my tongue a ton when I chew gum lately. It's weird.

Feet = Cold

Listening to: Insurance? by The Higher
What I Should Be Doing: Working on my write up for English/reading poems/sleeping. [I think this is the same as last night!]
I'm Also: Wishing I had socks on, reading Sorcery 101, uploading a video to YouTube, and checking Facebook.

I miss listening to my old music.

I also miss the way I felt last year. When I first got my laptop, there was this distinct feeling I associated with it, but it's completely gone now. The feeling, I mean. Not the laptop. xD I feel like I was a lot happier last year. I had less to worry about and more to be happy about. I dunno why I'm being so whiny/mopey this year when this was exactly what I was trying to avoid last year. : I spent all of freshman year trying to make myself less complainy.

Didn't work.

I discussed my 12 husbands with multiple people today. =) Always fun.

That's what helps that very long hour of fitness go by.

People take me too seriously. xD I wish they wouldn't. Save us all a lot of trouble.

I miss Allie. She's not online. =( She's always online by now. And I have lots of hatemail to show her. *proud grin*

Yes. I had something to say.

I've forgotten.

Vedanti brought us Jesus cookies today. :)

If I Don't HAVE to Do Anything, I Won't

Listening to: Helena by My Chemical Romance
What I Should Be Doing: Editing videos =)

I'm so lazy. I haven't updated this in like years. :)

Thanksgiving break = a-mazing.

I've got nothin' to dooo! xD

Actually, I have to edit videos for my YouTube. But I don't really HAVE to do that.

I’m Bad at Making Friends

Listening to: I Caught Fire by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Rereading the Chemistry chapters

Um. We went to a Chinese restaurant for dinner, and I annoyed my mom to the point where she wouldn’t talk to me anymore. xD But I didn’t do it on purpose. I was just trying to look for the best in people, rather than automatically assuming they all suck. *nod*

I asked her what she would do if she had never seen me before and I asked if I could hug her. She said she’d probably walk away [like Jack the camera guy. Though all I really wanted was a picture with him... Or just of him. xD] and then she was all “Think about their daily lives and how people are always like ‘ILOVEYOU!’ and how they’re just using him and stuff.” [I had told her earlier that I yelled “ILOVEYOU” to one of the guys that was setting up for TAI.] I was like “How am I using him?!” and she’s like “Well, you don’t really love him; love’s not a one way relationship” or something and I’m just like “... I know that. I didn’t tell the camera guy that I loved him, I just wanted a picture of him.” And she goes into how they’re all on drugs ‘cause it’s easy and how they all get married and then get divorced ‘cause they don’t try or something. And I’m just like “Yeah. But you don’t know that the camera guy’s on drugs or that the band even is.” And then my brother’s all “You just said that because they’re famous and that’s the only reason you like them.” And I’m like “NO! They’re crazy awesome and they’re really not all that famous and they’re not even IN THE BAND!”

Basically everyone got ticked off.

And then I said that I hated college and asked if I had to pay for gas [which I was really just wondering about] and by the end of it all, my mom was really mad. Yeah.

I dunno. I’m not gonna assume that everybody in every band is on drugs. I’m gonna give them the benefit of the doubt. That’s kind of unreasonable anyway. I dunno. It’s dumb.

My brother’s fortune cookie fortune was “If your cookie is in two pieces, the answer is yes.” I love that SO much that it’s not funny. xD

I’m getting my wisdom teeth, which SUCKS. There’s this flap of skin and it’s all raw/sore and it hurts. =( And today just kinda stunk. X(

I’m totally gonna bring my laptop to school tomorrow to post all the crud. Except I can’t get to YouTube or check my mail. But OH WELL.

If we watch my footage tomorrow, I’ll scream.

My dogs chewed up my cell phone. *face* I’m mad. At least it still works.

I wrote this on the 8th. It's going up on the 10th. Deal.