someday you will get the best of me.

I told myself the other day that I'd try to blog everyday for a while [like BEDA but a month late], because this is really the only self-reflection that I do [ever] and I wanna see if my writing changes. I dunno; we'll see.

I should most definitely be reading my pieces on feminism/working on my feminism assertion or studying for the BAZILLION tests I have, but I can't bring myself to work on any of it. Instead, I watch stupid YouTube videos and write shit blog entries. And realizing just how music ADD I am.

I - I don't listen to music anymore, really. Just in the car so it's not silent. But... I don't know. Shows are still fun, and I lovelovelove them, but they're not the same as they were. Just a different feeling to the whole thing. Maybe I'm growing out of it or some shit.

We got the book of our class's personal essays back today in AP English Language. I despise my personal essay, and seeing it published makes me want to cry a little.

I hate that our teachers moved our anatomy test after I had already studied and mine won't tell us what's going to be on there, so I'm like "well. I studied, but usually when I study, I fail anyway." I'll probably do badly, but at least I'll get it over with. I'm scared for the anatomy final; I'm going to have to do well, 'cause, well, I've done really badly in the class. Ugh. My teacher REFUSES to believe that I actually read and didn't have any questions about the material, so he said he was going to give me a bad grade for not asking questions. That's just ridiculous. You're going to give me a bad grade because I UNDERSTOOD THE MATERIAL?! Ugh. I just hate that class overall.

Obviously, I don't have a lot to talk about. I'm mostly just procrastinating. I don't want to read/study. Feminism isn't my thing, and APUSH is freaking scary.

Listening to Even If It Kills Me by Motion City Soundtrack, Sunshine by Matt Costa, Super Honeymoon by Owl City, Colorado Sunrise by 3OH!3

IMISSMYVANS.

Listening to: YYZ by Rush
What I Should Be Doing: Homework!

Um. I love how I blog more when my internet’s not working than I do when I can actually post stuff. xD

I’m afraid Bill’s signature’s gonna come off my shoe. I will seriously cry when that happens... Ah well, I’m trying not to think about it. =)

Anyway. The Academy Is... is playing in Chicago three times at the end of our Thanksgiving break, so my friends and I are just like “Wehavetoseethem.WEHAVETO.” I asked my mom and she said maybe. Which is WAY better than I thought her answer would be. *beam* We have a place to stay and a chaperone [my friend’s older brother] for the concert; we just need to work out who would take us [the only way our parents would let us go is if a parent went with us and the chaperone] and how we’d get there. We wanna go to both the shows on Friday and Saturday night. xD But who knows?

So. I should do homework! But I don’t wanna...

Yeah, I wrote this on Thursday, October 5, but it's going up on the 10th because AT&T sucks.