I’m Bad at Making Friends

Listening to: I Caught Fire by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Rereading the Chemistry chapters

Um. We went to a Chinese restaurant for dinner, and I annoyed my mom to the point where she wouldn’t talk to me anymore. xD But I didn’t do it on purpose. I was just trying to look for the best in people, rather than automatically assuming they all suck. *nod*

I asked her what she would do if she had never seen me before and I asked if I could hug her. She said she’d probably walk away [like Jack the camera guy. Though all I really wanted was a picture with him... Or just of him. xD] and then she was all “Think about their daily lives and how people are always like ‘ILOVEYOU!’ and how they’re just using him and stuff.” [I had told her earlier that I yelled “ILOVEYOU” to one of the guys that was setting up for TAI.] I was like “How am I using him?!” and she’s like “Well, you don’t really love him; love’s not a one way relationship” or something and I’m just like “... I know that. I didn’t tell the camera guy that I loved him, I just wanted a picture of him.” And she goes into how they’re all on drugs ‘cause it’s easy and how they all get married and then get divorced ‘cause they don’t try or something. And I’m just like “Yeah. But you don’t know that the camera guy’s on drugs or that the band even is.” And then my brother’s all “You just said that because they’re famous and that’s the only reason you like them.” And I’m like “NO! They’re crazy awesome and they’re really not all that famous and they’re not even IN THE BAND!”

Basically everyone got ticked off.

And then I said that I hated college and asked if I had to pay for gas [which I was really just wondering about] and by the end of it all, my mom was really mad. Yeah.

I dunno. I’m not gonna assume that everybody in every band is on drugs. I’m gonna give them the benefit of the doubt. That’s kind of unreasonable anyway. I dunno. It’s dumb.

My brother’s fortune cookie fortune was “If your cookie is in two pieces, the answer is yes.” I love that SO much that it’s not funny. xD

I’m getting my wisdom teeth, which SUCKS. There’s this flap of skin and it’s all raw/sore and it hurts. =( And today just kinda stunk. X(

I’m totally gonna bring my laptop to school tomorrow to post all the crud. Except I can’t get to YouTube or check my mail. But OH WELL.

If we watch my footage tomorrow, I’ll scream.

My dogs chewed up my cell phone. *face* I’m mad. At least it still works.

I wrote this on the 8th. It's going up on the 10th. Deal.

What’s NBC Stand For?

Listening to: Emo Kid by Jim Robert
What I Should Be Doing: Homework

I have a HUGE headache right now. And we won’t get our internet connection back until Friday. And that’s the best case scenario. It’s supposed to come back anytime from the 12th to the 15th. So I’m mad. That’s like another week.

Wednesday, October 3 to Friday, October 12. That’s how long it takes them to get our internet connection back. We were supposed to get it back today, so, with my luck, it’s never coming back.

AT&T SUCKS.

Yeah, seriously.

I should be writing my English essay or working on my PSAT prep junk or studying for my Chemistry test or working on Algebra 2 homework or filling out our ‘Knowledge Requirements’ sheet for World History AP.
But I’m not. I’m sitting here, listening to Fall Out Boy [now], typing this blog, with my English essay minimized and my PSAT prep sheet beside me. And playing Solitaire. Because I’m addicted to Solitaire and I procrastinate and my head hurts. And we won’t have internet for like seven days.

Patrick Stump is like my hero.

I have to watch North by Northwest sometime this week for my Digital Video class. I’m seriously starting to despise that class.

My guitar teacher didn’t show up today, because he thought we had Columbus Day off. Nope.

I got a 59 on my Algebra 2 retake, which is the EXACT SAME GRADE AS LAST TIME. It sucks, because I studied the original test and then the retake was completely different. That’s gonna lower my grade a TON and the quarter ends soon. =(

Oh well. I like don’t care about school anymore. Which is bad. But I don’t care enough to force myself to care. Screw college. I don’t wanna go anyway. We go to school for 22 – 30 years of our lives and then we work for 50 and then we’re old, retire, do nothing for a few years, and die.

Yeah.

If you couldn’t tell, I’m in a sucky mood.

I wrote this on the 8th, but it's going up the 10th. Yup.

The Lyric ‘Pizza of My Eye’ Really Bothers Me

Listening to: I’m Like A Lawyer with The Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You) by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Homework and SLEEEEPING!

I realized about an hour and a half ago that my digital video project is due tomorrow, not Friday. So I did the entire project by myself, while my storyboards like REQUIRE two people. So my footage sucks. A lot. And she’s going to hate it, because she already dislikes me and there’s so much wrong with it that it’s not funny. I’m totally done with that class. Seriously. It’s only like a month in and I’m freaking SICK of it.

I still have so much to do, and I’m tired, and I really shouldn’t have school tomorrow anyway, but I do, because the school’s MEAN and HATEFUL. Columbus Day = holiday, right?? Not according to them. *sulk*

My room’s a disaster area right now. It kind of makes me happy.

Usually, I get through school and homework and the stupid junk by thinking “I just have to get through this and then I can go this concert” or “I need to do this and then next month that CD comes out.” But I have NOTHING to look forward to at this point. And I don’t have internet. So I’m kinda upset. Actually, I wanna cry. =(

Thanksgiving break is the only thing good right now. And that’s forever from now. x(

Um. I guess I can’t wait till we get internet back. But I’m not really excited about that. I’m more mad at Geek Squad because they’re freaking idiots.

I’m really tired.

Um. Yeah.

I had something else to say but I forgot.

I love Fall Out Boy more than I should.

I want to see these bands live:
§ Powerspace
§ Motion City Soundtrack
§ This Providence
§ The Used
§ Fall Out Boy [again]
§ The Academy Is... [As many times as possible, man. They’re AMAZING live.]

Yeah.

Yeah, I wrote this on 10-7-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.

“SHE JUST HAS BLOODY STUMPS! ... PATRICK!”

Listening to: Tie the Rope by The Format
What I Should Be Doing: Working

I really need to work on my essay for Oedipus the King, film for my video class, read and summarize documents for my step-dad, finish my chemistry problems, study for the chemistry test, finish my quiz question sheets for my history class, and work on my Algebra homework. But I’m writing this instead. =D

I realized the other day that I probably came off as a jerk to Bill. I mean, after we took pictures and I asked him to tell Mike that he was my hero, we were kind of standing there watching him sign other people’s things and I said, “I don’t think you’ll tell him. I think you’re lying like Jack the camera guy.” And I didn’t really mean him to hear that, but he looked up at me from what he was signing. And I was just like “Don’t look at me!” really fast. *face* I feel bad about that. I was just kidding! Really! I think! xD Um.

Okay, while my friend Anna and I were spazzing over Tony and James/Jimmy and Mikey [basically TAI’s crew], I yelled “I LOVE YOU!” to James/Jimmy. And according to my friend, he looked down at me [‘cause we were right in front] and kinda smiled/looked freaked out. I had NO idea that he heard me. Seriously. Like. I missed that completely. But she swears it happened. =P

Yeah, my friends and I wanna go to Chicago, but I realized that we won’t be able to really meet/talk to them afterward in Chicago, ‘cause it’s their hometown and they’re actually playing at like an arena/theater/thing. And it’d be like impossible to get backstage/to the tour bus and there would probably be a ton more people than there were at our concert. So I’m kinda like “Maybe we should just wait till they come back here?”
I’m worried that they’ll get big before that though and then everyone will love them. =( Not that I’m against everyone loving them, but that’d make it so much harder to meet them. And my goal in life right now is to take a picture with all of the band. And it doesn’t matter if it’s individually or in a group, I don’t really care. xD I just wanna picture with ‘em all. And I already have one down! =D

I talk about The Academy Is... too much.

Uh. I totally had something more interesting to say/talk about.

Oh. Geek Squad = idiots. Every time they come to fix ANYTHING, whether it has to do with the internet or not, we lose our connection. I hate them. So much. I’m so bored and I don’t want to do homework and I just wanna slap them and their dorky car. *rawr*

That new show Chuck’s like awesome. I saw the second episode today and I liked it a lot... xD And I saw Journey Man? Journeyman? I dunno. That show. xD We saw the first episode and that seemed kinda cool too. =D And I also saw part of the first episode of Bionic Woman or something. That one freaked me out. Too much blood. xP

Okay, here’s what I’m going to name my children:

1. Jesus [Hey-soos]
2. Bob
3. Chuck
4. Jepharee
5. Harris
6. ChasingOkapi
7. Butcher!
8. Queso

I swear there was another. I don’t remember it though. Anyway. Um. My goal in life is to take a picture with people named one of those names. Like, a picture with a Bob, a Chuck, a Jepharee, etc. I have one down. I have a picture with a Jesus [he’s my hero!]. I only need seven more. xD I don’t think I’m going to count ChasingOkapi though. And Queso could be a nickname. Yeah. :P And... Butcher doesn’t need the ! and it could be a nickname, too. And I got that from the drummer of TAI; it’s NOT the action or the profession. I’m not naming the kid like “KILL!” or “SLAUGHTER!” or something. It’s the DRUMMER, OKAY!? THIS GUY -> http://www.flickr.com/photos/skepticsxo/190363386/ The guy that’s “NOT WEARING ANY PANTS AT ALL.

Sorry.

Um. I’ve had the first four names for at least a year, I think. Or almost a year. Something like that. xD The last four have been added on randomly. Harris was last year too, but toward the end... ChasingOkapi was over the summer; Butcher! was this year; Queso was this year.

Yup!

I better go do my homework... BLEH.

This was written on Oct. 7, but it's going up the 10th. Don't ask.

Cartwheels Solve Everything

Listening to: I’ve Got All This Ringing in my Ears and None on my Fingers by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping

Happy guitarists make me smile. =)

Mike Carden is my hero.

And the way I write Mike does NOT look like MiM.E., no matter what Ethan says.

Yeah, I wrote this on Friday, 10-5-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.

I’m Awful At Negotiating

Listening to: Hospital by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Nothing, actually. =)

Yeah, I’m SO glad it’s Friday. I was gonna bring my laptop to school with me today so I could update my blog and post my concert pictures on Facebook, but I completely forgot this morning. x( Ah well. I’ll have internet on Monday, so that’s good, I guess. =P

This week felt like forever, except not, at the same time. =D I can’t believe the concert was only like three days ago. My ears stopped ringing today!! I just remember Monday being AWFUL. Like HORRIBLE. Like wanting-to-cry-or-kick-something-in-every-class-before-lunch terrible. Which is pretty bad, since we have the majority of our classes before lunch. Yeah. And last weekend didn’t even really count, ‘cause I went to my dad’s [which means I spent most of Friday and Sunday on planes or packing.] And Tuesday = concert day, so that was awesome, but for EVERY DAY since then, I’ve had no internet, so it’s felt like FOREVER.

Okay, whatever my siblings and their friends are doing outside my room is getting REALLY annoying. It’s just like the bass of a really loud song or somebody hitting the wall or something. It’s not even consistent. x( It’s just random... Rawr. Shuddup.

I love The Used. I really wanna see them live. =)

Yeah.

I’m so bored that I’m doing my homework. Seriously. It’s Friday night and I’m doing my CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK. I don’t do homework until Sunday night. Really and truly. This is what happens when I have no internet connection. *dies*

I wanna look up Sherwood and Armor for Sleep, ‘cause they were both amazing at the concert on Tuesday, but I can’t until we get our internet back. I don’t really wanna go spend $30 on 2 CDs if I’m not gonna like ‘em... xD

Anyway.

Uh. Give me an amazing concert, three hours at the venue before the band comes on, six AA batteries, and a camera, and I’ll take 159 pictures. =) That’s what happened on Tuesday. And I’ve been trying to get the pics to my friends ever since, but it’s hard since I have no internet. Wah.

I have to film my first real video this weekend. Well, I’ve actually already filmed footage for two projects, but this is the first assignment I’m working alone on. And I have no tripod. Fun! xD Actually, I don’t care, ‘cause I’ve been filming for almost three years without a tripod. So. :)

I just realized that of my 183 videos, a HUGE percentage was made during this year and the last. High school, basically. =D Kinda funny. Though I’ve definitely gone away from editing. I usually just talk to the camera and then post it on YouTube. Yeah. :D

Yeah, I wrote this on Friday, October 5, but it's going up on the 10th, because I only have internet at school.

IMISSMYVANS.

Listening to: YYZ by Rush
What I Should Be Doing: Homework!

Um. I love how I blog more when my internet’s not working than I do when I can actually post stuff. xD

I’m afraid Bill’s signature’s gonna come off my shoe. I will seriously cry when that happens... Ah well, I’m trying not to think about it. =)

Anyway. The Academy Is... is playing in Chicago three times at the end of our Thanksgiving break, so my friends and I are just like “Wehavetoseethem.WEHAVETO.” I asked my mom and she said maybe. Which is WAY better than I thought her answer would be. *beam* We have a place to stay and a chaperone [my friend’s older brother] for the concert; we just need to work out who would take us [the only way our parents would let us go is if a parent went with us and the chaperone] and how we’d get there. We wanna go to both the shows on Friday and Saturday night. xD But who knows?

So. I should do homework! But I don’t wanna...

Yeah, I wrote this on Thursday, October 5, but it's going up on the 10th because AT&T sucks.