My bands are outgrowing me.

Most depressing thing ever.

genre jumps, devolution, and cover art.

I'm unhappy with Fueled by Ramen [and Fall Out Boy]. All their bands are changing their sounds. And yeah, sure, I'm cool with them maturing musically and everything, but most of the time it sounds like they're devolving. Panic[!] at the Disco, The Academy Is... - it's not that I don't love the bands [because I do]. It's just that I expect more from them. Quality stuff, not the somewhat cliche, not-entirely-pop-but-reminscient-of-it, slightly boring stuff they've put out recently.

Panic[!]'s newest CD, which they worked on for years [literally], was a disappointment. With the exclamation point went the energy of the music. Sure, I liked a few of the songs on Pretty. Odd. - We're So Starving, Pas de Cheval, sometimes Northern Downpour. It's certainly not as if the rest of the songs are bad, but they just don't catch my attention like their old music did. Honestly, if the CD hadn't been by Panic[!], I would never have bought it. I only listened to it when I was getting ready to see them, because I wanted to be able to still have fun if they only played songs off that. [Luckily, they played the old songs also and sounded better than ever.] I love the band, but I expected more from them.

The Academy Is...'s new CD isn't terrible. I still haven't listened to the whole thing, but I do like a fair amount of the songs I have heard. Paper Chase and His Girl Friday are my favorites off the album at the moment. But I would never specifically choose those songs to listen to. I'll listen to them if they come up on my playlist, but I'm not going to seek them out. Even in Santi, their previous album, it was a little hard for me to find the sound that I loved about them. I grew to love Santi though, especially after seeing them perform it live twice. It's a CD I probably would have bought even if I had no idea who the band was. Fast Times at Barrington High is a CD I wouldn't have looked twice at. The music isn't bad, but it doesn't catch my attention. I hear it, but I'm definitely not captured by it the way I was with their first album - which I discovered years late. The lyrics on some tracks are brilliant, but most are slightly cliche. [Not that I can even write cliche lyrics.] Again, I love the band. I just wanted more. However, considering how often they toured between Santi and this album, it's pretty impressive.

Fall Out Boy - who isn't on Fueled by Ramen, but whatever - has a new album coming out on Election Day. I've already made sure that the CD store that I go to is ordering it. I'm buying no matter what. I adore the cover art as well as the title. I liked the new songs on the free mixtape they put out. But "I Don't Care" just doesn't really meet my standards. As selfish as it sounds, I wish Patrick had never learned to sing; in my opinion, his voice is absolutely brilliant on Take This To Your Grave [which is my favorite CD anyway] and decreases from there. That's not to say that I don't love his voice, because I do. I just don't love it as much. The lyrics to I Don't Care aren't great, but I can deal with that. I wasn't worried, because I felt the same way with Infinity On High and still ended up really liking that CD. Besides, I'd already heard other new songs that I liked [despite the constant "GET FAMILIAR" crap]. It can't be all bad. They put out a new song on iTunes the other day, and I was totally ready to text my dad to ask if I could borrow a dollar to buy the song. I was even a little excited, but I ended up not even wanting to buy it. I was just like "Eh, it'll be on the CD... Why waste money?" I never like the singles though, so I still have faith in them. :)

I'm not giving up on these bands.

Y'know, maybe it's me.
Maybe I'm outgrowing them.

Operator, I Can't Hold Much Longer

I was listening to Nobody Puts Baby in The Corner, and my tummy just got warm. Like, happy warm on the inside. Patrick's voice makes so dang happy for no effing reason.

I miss those sugar cigarettes. Y'know, that candy you buy in convenience stores, with the red tips?

Sometimes I hate how much music influences my moods.

It's quiet now, and I'm sad. Not crying-sad, just calm-sad. It's my default mood or something.

I don't want to do my math homework, but I have guitar tomorrow. Wednesday night's the only time I do my math homework at home.

Pencils are fun to chew on...

I'm plannin - never mind, I can't do anything this weekend.

Next weekend, I'm planning on walking to the CD store [with someone maybe? I wonder if I could bring my dog. Does Brent let dogs in there...?] to buy/order a Something Corporate CD. And then I'm going to the bookstore across the street to try to find Invisible Monsters, 'cause I'm a loser and want to read that. I blame Motion City Soundtrack, but whatever.

let'sgooncemoredowntothedancefloor

Powerspace Snap Bracelet is the only whole song I heard by Powerspace on Saturday. I'm glad I left though, 'cause listening to this makes my stomach drop, while their other songs are still good.

I'm so so sick of the YouTube community.

I just realized I'm typing this in "Edit HTML" mode. God, I miss 8th grade computer class.

I realized the other day that I talk to myself because I want someone to talk to. And that makes me feel so empty.

I had sushi last night, and for about six hours after dinner, I could taste it in my mouth. I should've gone with the shrimp in those california rolls.

I wish I understood the term 'time management' and that my videos turned out the way I wanted.

I should do math instead of sitting here looking at the blank paper.

Why is it that on CDs, the non-singles are always better than the singles...?

heymisterDJyou'vegottaputarecordonyeah

So tired all the time.

So, Is This What You Wanted? Too Bad, It's What You Got.

Listening to: You're Making It Come Alive by My Favorite Highway
What I Should Be Doing: B.S.ing my assignment for digital video, studying for my WHAP/Algebra 2 tests, doing Algebra 2 test corrections, doing my Chem problems, sleeping
I'm Also: Talking to Anna and Whitney, wishing YouTube would load, trying not to cry, and missing Allie

I kind of hate life right now.

I've sworn off all mainstream music that I don't already know about. [I'm still gonna listen to FOB, but I'm not going to check out Cobra Starship or any new bands.]

I can't talk about music to anyone. Ever. It only leads to crappy crappy situations.

Plane rides suck.

So does digital video.

And life.

I'm getting really sick of everything.

Every single one of my classes is pointless. Seriously. I can't think of ONE thing I'll actually use EVER.

Guitar class has become more like a therapy session.

I hate crying, but I've done it so much this year... I miss last year so much it's not even funny.

I hate musically diverse people.

This weekend was awful, especially because we had Friday off. I just slept through it and then went to the airport.

Complete crap.

I want three CDs, and I'm going to have to walk down to the CD store alone to order them.

I spent the last of my iTunes money on Thursday night.

The more I think about it, the worse I feel.

I guess I should stop thinking. I mean, that's how I got through two funerals in two weeks.

I want to go to my concert. I'll be hanging out with two of my best friends and seeing one of my favorite bands all at once, so it should be good. It better be.

I'm sick of feeling so alone.

My mom blames everything on my dad, but... I don't think that's the problem. I like my dad better than her.

Why was I so happy last year? I don't even remember being happy before that.

The Red Hot Chili Peppers suck.

I - I need to do my homework.

But I don't know how to correct Algebra 2, do any of the Chem problems I have left, B.S. digital video, or study for history.

So.

Yeah.

Stalker flight attendants are really scary.

"Next Time You Be The Bait!"

Listening to: For the Longest Time by Sherwood
What I Should Be Doing: ENGLISH! AND CHEM!
I'm Also: ... Doing nothing, actually.

So I skipped a song on iTunes when it's minimized to my start bar, right? Okay.

I'm waiting for the song. And waiting. And waiting. I can faintly hear crickets, and I'm thinking "WTF?" [I'm overusing that now. *whine*]

Then, just as I'm about to maximize the window and figure out what song it is, I hear this loud roaring noise. And screaming.

THANK YOU, FALL OUT BOY. I BOUGHT YOUR EFFING MUSIC VIDEO FOR $1.99, AND YOU FREAK ME OUT.

GAH.

As much as I love the music video for A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More Touch Me, I wish it wouldn't RANDOMLY play on my iTunes. =(

Sacrifice the Virgin Gummy Bear to the Potassium Chlorate God. NOW.

Listening to: I'm Like a Lawyer with the Way I'm Always Trying to Get You Off [Me + You] by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Reading poems for English/working on my write up/sleeping
I'm Also: Playing The Sims 2 and updating on Facebook and talking to Allie =)

I adore Infinity on High. Seriously. Like, minus The Carpal Tunnel of Love and This Ain't a Scene [I way overplayed those tracks way back in February before the album even came out.] I wish FOB was as crazy awesome as This Providence and Powerspace and came to my city...

I'm tired.

I tried going to bed at like 10:30, but I couldn't sleep till 11:45. So I dunno.

My friend Vedanti owes Allie a box of Jesus cookies and Allie said she'd share. =)

So I'm hoping she'll bring them tomorrow so we can like inhale them before fitness. xD

Fitness = waste of life.

Fitness = mean.

Fitness = makes me stay at school till 5.

I love how I used to have more to say here, but truthfully, not all that much has been going on.

'Cept my dream... But I've forgotten a ton of it.

So.

Adios!

AT&T Sucks and Andy is Jesus

Listening to: Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace
What I Should Be Doing: Writing Inner/Outer circle questions for World History AP

I love Powerspace. Like times a million.

I almost went to a Motion City Soundtrack today. But my mom said nooo. So wah. She also said no to Fall Out Boy, Powerspace, and This Providence. Yeah. Sucks. FOB was yesterday, Powerspace woulda been this Sunday, and This Providence woulda been like two weeks from now. I'm sad. =(

I'm mad, 'cause my Digital Video teacher made us all get external harddrives, but she didn't give us ANY requirements/expectations, so my step-dad and I just guessed when we bought one [it was $130 and one of the cheapest ones.] And she's all "No, it doesn't work; get a new one." She finally gave me like 2 actual requirements, but that's it.

Okay, the three weeks after October 2 just freaking SUCKED. I've been having a pretty good week this week though. Hopefully, it'll stay good. I think it's good 'cause it's finally getting colder. =)

I'm tired and I don't think I'm gonna go trick or treating for Halloween, which makes me really sad. I wanna go, but it wouldn't be fun by myself...

I'm going to my dad's this weekend and then my friend's staying with me for like 2 weekends in a row. xD Whoo, man. Naw, I'm actually happy about that. =D

My Sherwood CD and my Farewell CD come in tomorrow. =) So happy... I just have to go pick 'em up and I'll be happy for like a week. xD The CD store always makes my day/week better. Like, I hadn't gone in almost a month and then I went on Monday and I was just like "I had/am having a really good day." Was fun. :D Then my friend and I scootered around the intersection by my house for like an hour. *giggles*

Anyway. I should go work on the Inner/Outer circle crud.

I Got to School Today When I Would Normally Still Be Asleep

Listening to: The Phrase That Pays by The Academy Is...
What I Should Be Doing: Working on my English essay

I've been at school since 7:10 AM. It kinda sucks. I need to work on English, but I'm lazy and don't wanna do anything.

I want Isn't This Supposed to Be Fun by Farewell and A Different Light by Sherwood. And I think I'm gonna try to get the new Armor for Sleep CD when it comes out. I should probably find out what it's called. And if I have enough money. xD

... I only have $12. I need like $45. RAWR. Well, M.E. owes me at least $12.

I need a job.

I'm so sick of school. Tomorrow's shortened classes, but I'm so sick of it. I'm so glad that it's Thursday. *nod*

I want to see Powerspace SO badly. As soon as my internet comes back, I'm making a MySpace just to ask the bar/venue whether the show's all ages or not. And then I'm gonna find some small screamo-ish band and ask them to cover Bingo for me. Because that would make me happy.

I'm tired. :)

I have a Latin test in like an hour and a half, and I haven't studied, but I don't wanna right now. I have better things to do. xD Actually, that's a lie. I should work on English but I'm updating this instead. And I can't get to like anything on this computer. Not YouTube, not Facebook, not Yahoo! Mail, not even FOB's website. I don't get it.

My hands are ALWAYS really cold. Same with my feet.

I had to watch the movie North by Northwest for Digital Video. It was okay, but I got bored, and some scenes seemed way too long and the ending sucked. I wanted them to die. And Leonard's totally my hero. xD Okay. I'm done.

My English teacher dislikes me. I'm not exactly sure why. At least, it seems like she dislikes me. *shrugs*

I'm gonna go work on my essay... *face*

The Lyric ‘Pizza of My Eye’ Really Bothers Me

Listening to: I’m Like A Lawyer with The Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You) by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Homework and SLEEEEPING!

I realized about an hour and a half ago that my digital video project is due tomorrow, not Friday. So I did the entire project by myself, while my storyboards like REQUIRE two people. So my footage sucks. A lot. And she’s going to hate it, because she already dislikes me and there’s so much wrong with it that it’s not funny. I’m totally done with that class. Seriously. It’s only like a month in and I’m freaking SICK of it.

I still have so much to do, and I’m tired, and I really shouldn’t have school tomorrow anyway, but I do, because the school’s MEAN and HATEFUL. Columbus Day = holiday, right?? Not according to them. *sulk*

My room’s a disaster area right now. It kind of makes me happy.

Usually, I get through school and homework and the stupid junk by thinking “I just have to get through this and then I can go this concert” or “I need to do this and then next month that CD comes out.” But I have NOTHING to look forward to at this point. And I don’t have internet. So I’m kinda upset. Actually, I wanna cry. =(

Thanksgiving break is the only thing good right now. And that’s forever from now. x(

Um. I guess I can’t wait till we get internet back. But I’m not really excited about that. I’m more mad at Geek Squad because they’re freaking idiots.

I’m really tired.

Um. Yeah.

I had something else to say but I forgot.

I love Fall Out Boy more than I should.

I want to see these bands live:
§ Powerspace
§ Motion City Soundtrack
§ This Providence
§ The Used
§ Fall Out Boy [again]
§ The Academy Is... [As many times as possible, man. They’re AMAZING live.]

Yeah.

Yeah, I wrote this on 10-7-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.

Cartwheels Solve Everything

Listening to: I’ve Got All This Ringing in my Ears and None on my Fingers by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping

Happy guitarists make me smile. =)

Mike Carden is my hero.

And the way I write Mike does NOT look like MiM.E., no matter what Ethan says.

Yeah, I wrote this on Friday, 10-5-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.

McDonalds Gets Old Fast

Listening to: Slow Down by The Academy Is...

I know I should be excited for the The Academy Is... concert, which is in almost exactly a month, especially since I've been listening to a lot of TAI's music recently, but instead, I'm in an awful mood, 'cause I really want to go see Fall Out Boy again, but the closest concert to us is an hour away and on a Tuesday. Which is not cool. At all. Especially since my parents would let me go if I wouldn't miss school. So I've been trying to convince them that missing like two days really isn't that big a deal, but they don't listen to me very much at all. So I'm really not happy right now. I know that sounds selfish, but they won't even give me a good reason besides "you can't miss school" and then they don't even tell me why I can't miss school. Ugh. And then my mom threatened to not let me go to the TAI concert, so I'm in a really bad mood now.

Happy Labor Day.

We went to my grandparents' lake house this weekend and went tubing. My hand kept rubbing against the handles and I have like four places where I've rubbed the top few layers of my skin off. Well, kind of. xP It hurts pretty badly. I'm supposed to keep it moist and keep bandaids on it, but I'm in too bad a mood to care at the moment.

Yeah. I still have to finish a book for English tonight, so I should probably get off the computer and read, but I reaaaaaaaaaally don't want to. I also need to do like two more problems for Chemistry... I need to staple stuff into my AP World History spiral too, but I don't want to go get the stapler again. Homework's the main reason I haven't posted anything here in like a week. That and just stress. I've had a pretty awful first week.

I need to go pick up/buy This Providence by This Providence from the CD store, 'cause it came in on Thursday. I just haven't had time. I was going to go today, but I wasn't sure it would be open. I hope I have time tomorrow.

I really don't think this year's gonna be fun at ALL. It's started out badly and it just keeps getting worse. *throws sarcastic confetti*

Sorry. I'm in a reaaaally bad mood right now. I haven't said that yet, have I? I'm sure you didn't notice. =P

I think I had something else to say here. Well, I've forgotten it, my feet are cold, and my hands hurt. Oh. I have to bring my camera tomorrow for Digital Video and shoot some scenes for our first project, which REALLY stinks. I don't want to do it at all. I'm like dreading it. I'm afraid I'll mess up or do something wrong or something stupid. Well, it's not like she really taught us how to do anything.