So, Is This What You Wanted? Too Bad, It's What You Got.

Listening to: You're Making It Come Alive by My Favorite Highway
What I Should Be Doing: B.S.ing my assignment for digital video, studying for my WHAP/Algebra 2 tests, doing Algebra 2 test corrections, doing my Chem problems, sleeping
I'm Also: Talking to Anna and Whitney, wishing YouTube would load, trying not to cry, and missing Allie

I kind of hate life right now.

I've sworn off all mainstream music that I don't already know about. [I'm still gonna listen to FOB, but I'm not going to check out Cobra Starship or any new bands.]

I can't talk about music to anyone. Ever. It only leads to crappy crappy situations.

Plane rides suck.

So does digital video.

And life.

I'm getting really sick of everything.

Every single one of my classes is pointless. Seriously. I can't think of ONE thing I'll actually use EVER.

Guitar class has become more like a therapy session.

I hate crying, but I've done it so much this year... I miss last year so much it's not even funny.

I hate musically diverse people.

This weekend was awful, especially because we had Friday off. I just slept through it and then went to the airport.

Complete crap.

I want three CDs, and I'm going to have to walk down to the CD store alone to order them.

I spent the last of my iTunes money on Thursday night.

The more I think about it, the worse I feel.

I guess I should stop thinking. I mean, that's how I got through two funerals in two weeks.

I want to go to my concert. I'll be hanging out with two of my best friends and seeing one of my favorite bands all at once, so it should be good. It better be.

I'm sick of feeling so alone.

My mom blames everything on my dad, but... I don't think that's the problem. I like my dad better than her.

Why was I so happy last year? I don't even remember being happy before that.

The Red Hot Chili Peppers suck.

I - I need to do my homework.

But I don't know how to correct Algebra 2, do any of the Chem problems I have left, B.S. digital video, or study for history.

So.

Yeah.

Stalker flight attendants are really scary.

I Is Sleepy

Listening to: Anyone Else But You by Michael Cera and Ellen Page
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping
I'm Also: Editing

I love this song for some reason... I like their version better than the real one too. I keep replaying it... Heh.

We actually saw Juno today, and it was good. xD Unfortunately I have to write a stupid review on it for my class. Ah well. Hopefully it counts as one that we could have watched...

Yeah. Uhm. I'm exhausted for some reason. It's oh-so-possible that it's because I was up until 6 AM last night. Yeah, probably that.

Degrassi episodes are boring once you've seen them about eighty times.

I wish Fuse would stop rerunning the same songs... Darn that End of the Year Countdown...

Australia is Full of Awesome

Listening to: ...But What Will They Say? by This Providence
What I Should Be Doing: Studying for my English test, my Latin test, my Chem test, my WHAP inner/outer circle, and sleeping
I'm Also: Talking to my friends [actually, I'm watching them talk about the poems on the English test and not contributing] and wishing my tummy wasn't bothering me and charing my iPod

I miss Lindsey and Lauren.

This week sucked.

Tomorrow's gonna be worse. =) 3 tests and an inner/outer circle and a filming assignment.

Well, My Weekend's Ruined

Listening to: You're Crashing, But You're No Wave by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Absolutely nothing unfortunately.

Today was awesome. And then I got in the car to come home.

AND IT STARTED SUCKING. TIMES FRICKIN' TWELVE.

Like, I actually had fun at school. I yelled at a bunch of idiots in the lunch line [there were about forty (okay, so there weren't FORTY. BUT THERE WERE A LOT! xP) of them all trying to shove their way up the lunch line and they were getting really obnoxious, so... xD] in front of the dean of students and he didn't care. xD I coughed on the ones that didn't listen to me, also... It was fun. I always have fun yelling at people. Seriously. It like makes my day about twenty times better. 'Cept for the adrenaline rush after. =)

We did absolutely nothing in History, which is also freaking amazing. That was fun, too. xD And then I went to English with my group to finish our questions for a socratic seminar and after stress and craziness, we goofed off and it was fun too. :P

And I was really looking forward to this weekend [ALL FRICKING WEEK TOO] because my friend was s'posed to stay with me [my parents and my siblings were gonna go on a mission trip], and we basically hang out and do random crud, and it's AMAZING. xD They're usually my favorite weekends like ever. =P

And then I get in the car.

And my friend's all "Yeah, your mom apparently didn't go on the mission trip." And I'm like "... WHAT!?!?!"

And, not even kidding, it ruined my day. My sister's supposedly sick [which, seriously, I don't believe, because I've seen her running around, and she's eating candy and buttered pasta and just CRUD, while her "stomach hurts." LIES.] and that's why my mom's staying. But really, my friend coulda watched her. We usually both stay anyway...

Since then, I've been yelled at for not having all A's [IT'S A FRICKING FINE ART. DIGITAL VIDEO DOESN'T MATTER.] and I'm going to be forced to watch a movie with my sister and mom later and I don't want to. At all.

Plus, my friend was s'posed to stay with us next weekend too, but my mom's all "I might stay home" so that really sucks. And "I might stay home" pretty much means "I'LLBEHERE." And that sucks because we never see my friend. =(

And I ranted about my mom not letting me go to a venue unless the band was Christian and how she thinks "tattoos = bad people" and how I've missed like four concerts in the past week 'cause she wouldn't lemme go to any of them. And even THINKING about that makes me want to cry.

Like, I freaking live for concerts and music and that crud. I don't care about like anything else. [Pathetic, but completely true.]

So. Today sucks.

Being Sick on Halloween STINKS

Listening to: my fan
What I Should Be Doing: SLEEPING

It's only 8:09 and I should really already be asleep. I'MSICK. It sucks. I mean, I've been waiting to get sick for like a month now, but now that I am, it's awful. My stomach is really queasy [and I haven't eaten anything since about 7:50 AM], my head hurts occasionally, and I just feel gross. =( Yeah.

So I wake up late, eat a Poptart in the car, go to Digital Video, where my tummy decides to feel awful, and go to English, where I have a test [that I think I did badly on] and my tummy decides to half-kill me. Then, I'm walking to the library with my booooks, and I pass the dean of students in the hall and he's like "How are you?" and I'm just all "Hi" 'cause I feel like crud. And he's all "Are you okay? Usually you're all excited and smiling and stuff" and I'm like "I feel bad" so then he's all "Go to the nurse" and I'm like "But I have to do my math homework." But he made me go anyway. And I sat there for like 30 minutes waiting for my mom to come pick me up while working on stupid history.

Yeah. So then I came home and slept for SIX HOURS. And then I woke up, did homework, and now I'm here. =(

It sucks. Even though I may possibly be too old, I really wanted to go trick or treating. :( This is actually the first year I haven't gone... Even when I had strep throat when I was like 9, I sat in our little red wagon and my dad pulled me to the houses. xD I luff Halloween. And trick or treating...

Wahs.

The end.

I may or may not be going to bed now.

Oh, and my mom's all "You're not going to school tomorrow" so poo. I'll be here.

AT&T Sucks and Andy is Jesus

Listening to: Sleep, Everyone by Powerspace
What I Should Be Doing: Writing Inner/Outer circle questions for World History AP

I love Powerspace. Like times a million.

I almost went to a Motion City Soundtrack today. But my mom said nooo. So wah. She also said no to Fall Out Boy, Powerspace, and This Providence. Yeah. Sucks. FOB was yesterday, Powerspace woulda been this Sunday, and This Providence woulda been like two weeks from now. I'm sad. =(

I'm mad, 'cause my Digital Video teacher made us all get external harddrives, but she didn't give us ANY requirements/expectations, so my step-dad and I just guessed when we bought one [it was $130 and one of the cheapest ones.] And she's all "No, it doesn't work; get a new one." She finally gave me like 2 actual requirements, but that's it.

Okay, the three weeks after October 2 just freaking SUCKED. I've been having a pretty good week this week though. Hopefully, it'll stay good. I think it's good 'cause it's finally getting colder. =)

I'm tired and I don't think I'm gonna go trick or treating for Halloween, which makes me really sad. I wanna go, but it wouldn't be fun by myself...

I'm going to my dad's this weekend and then my friend's staying with me for like 2 weekends in a row. xD Whoo, man. Naw, I'm actually happy about that. =D

My Sherwood CD and my Farewell CD come in tomorrow. =) So happy... I just have to go pick 'em up and I'll be happy for like a week. xD The CD store always makes my day/week better. Like, I hadn't gone in almost a month and then I went on Monday and I was just like "I had/am having a really good day." Was fun. :D Then my friend and I scootered around the intersection by my house for like an hour. *giggles*

Anyway. I should go work on the Inner/Outer circle crud.

I Got to School Today When I Would Normally Still Be Asleep

Listening to: The Phrase That Pays by The Academy Is...
What I Should Be Doing: Working on my English essay

I've been at school since 7:10 AM. It kinda sucks. I need to work on English, but I'm lazy and don't wanna do anything.

I want Isn't This Supposed to Be Fun by Farewell and A Different Light by Sherwood. And I think I'm gonna try to get the new Armor for Sleep CD when it comes out. I should probably find out what it's called. And if I have enough money. xD

... I only have $12. I need like $45. RAWR. Well, M.E. owes me at least $12.

I need a job.

I'm so sick of school. Tomorrow's shortened classes, but I'm so sick of it. I'm so glad that it's Thursday. *nod*

I want to see Powerspace SO badly. As soon as my internet comes back, I'm making a MySpace just to ask the bar/venue whether the show's all ages or not. And then I'm gonna find some small screamo-ish band and ask them to cover Bingo for me. Because that would make me happy.

I'm tired. :)

I have a Latin test in like an hour and a half, and I haven't studied, but I don't wanna right now. I have better things to do. xD Actually, that's a lie. I should work on English but I'm updating this instead. And I can't get to like anything on this computer. Not YouTube, not Facebook, not Yahoo! Mail, not even FOB's website. I don't get it.

My hands are ALWAYS really cold. Same with my feet.

I had to watch the movie North by Northwest for Digital Video. It was okay, but I got bored, and some scenes seemed way too long and the ending sucked. I wanted them to die. And Leonard's totally my hero. xD Okay. I'm done.

My English teacher dislikes me. I'm not exactly sure why. At least, it seems like she dislikes me. *shrugs*

I'm gonna go work on my essay... *face*

The Lyric ‘Pizza of My Eye’ Really Bothers Me

Listening to: I’m Like A Lawyer with The Way I’m Always Trying to Get You Off (Me + You) by Fall Out Boy
What I Should Be Doing: Homework and SLEEEEPING!

I realized about an hour and a half ago that my digital video project is due tomorrow, not Friday. So I did the entire project by myself, while my storyboards like REQUIRE two people. So my footage sucks. A lot. And she’s going to hate it, because she already dislikes me and there’s so much wrong with it that it’s not funny. I’m totally done with that class. Seriously. It’s only like a month in and I’m freaking SICK of it.

I still have so much to do, and I’m tired, and I really shouldn’t have school tomorrow anyway, but I do, because the school’s MEAN and HATEFUL. Columbus Day = holiday, right?? Not according to them. *sulk*

My room’s a disaster area right now. It kind of makes me happy.

Usually, I get through school and homework and the stupid junk by thinking “I just have to get through this and then I can go this concert” or “I need to do this and then next month that CD comes out.” But I have NOTHING to look forward to at this point. And I don’t have internet. So I’m kinda upset. Actually, I wanna cry. =(

Thanksgiving break is the only thing good right now. And that’s forever from now. x(

Um. I guess I can’t wait till we get internet back. But I’m not really excited about that. I’m more mad at Geek Squad because they’re freaking idiots.

I’m really tired.

Um. Yeah.

I had something else to say but I forgot.

I love Fall Out Boy more than I should.

I want to see these bands live:
§ Powerspace
§ Motion City Soundtrack
§ This Providence
§ The Used
§ Fall Out Boy [again]
§ The Academy Is... [As many times as possible, man. They’re AMAZING live.]

Yeah.

Yeah, I wrote this on 10-7-07, but it's going up on the 10th. Just because.

I’m Awful At Negotiating

Listening to: Hospital by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Nothing, actually. =)

Yeah, I’m SO glad it’s Friday. I was gonna bring my laptop to school with me today so I could update my blog and post my concert pictures on Facebook, but I completely forgot this morning. x( Ah well. I’ll have internet on Monday, so that’s good, I guess. =P

This week felt like forever, except not, at the same time. =D I can’t believe the concert was only like three days ago. My ears stopped ringing today!! I just remember Monday being AWFUL. Like HORRIBLE. Like wanting-to-cry-or-kick-something-in-every-class-before-lunch terrible. Which is pretty bad, since we have the majority of our classes before lunch. Yeah. And last weekend didn’t even really count, ‘cause I went to my dad’s [which means I spent most of Friday and Sunday on planes or packing.] And Tuesday = concert day, so that was awesome, but for EVERY DAY since then, I’ve had no internet, so it’s felt like FOREVER.

Okay, whatever my siblings and their friends are doing outside my room is getting REALLY annoying. It’s just like the bass of a really loud song or somebody hitting the wall or something. It’s not even consistent. x( It’s just random... Rawr. Shuddup.

I love The Used. I really wanna see them live. =)

Yeah.

I’m so bored that I’m doing my homework. Seriously. It’s Friday night and I’m doing my CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK. I don’t do homework until Sunday night. Really and truly. This is what happens when I have no internet connection. *dies*

I wanna look up Sherwood and Armor for Sleep, ‘cause they were both amazing at the concert on Tuesday, but I can’t until we get our internet back. I don’t really wanna go spend $30 on 2 CDs if I’m not gonna like ‘em... xD

Anyway.

Uh. Give me an amazing concert, three hours at the venue before the band comes on, six AA batteries, and a camera, and I’ll take 159 pictures. =) That’s what happened on Tuesday. And I’ve been trying to get the pics to my friends ever since, but it’s hard since I have no internet. Wah.

I have to film my first real video this weekend. Well, I’ve actually already filmed footage for two projects, but this is the first assignment I’m working alone on. And I have no tripod. Fun! xD Actually, I don’t care, ‘cause I’ve been filming for almost three years without a tripod. So. :)

I just realized that of my 183 videos, a HUGE percentage was made during this year and the last. High school, basically. =D Kinda funny. Though I’ve definitely gone away from editing. I usually just talk to the camera and then post it on YouTube. Yeah. :D

Yeah, I wrote this on Friday, October 5, but it's going up on the 10th, because I only have internet at school.

Storyboards Stinks

Listening to: the rain and my step-sister's cousin talking to my step-mom in the room above me
What I Should Be Doing: Packing to go home

This weekend's been crazy. Felt longer and shorter than it's been... Nothing's really happened recently, so, to tell you the truth, I don't know what to write here. I'm tired, since Anthony and I stayed up till like 3:30 AM last night and I woke up at 10. It's enough sleep, but it didn't feel long enough. xD [He woke up at 7. Seriously. And he says he went to bed more towards 4.] Anyway. I'm heading to the airport in like... twenty minutes but I don't wanna go. I don't wanna get on an airplane and do all my stupid homework and then get home and do more homework and then stay up too late and then go to bed and wake up and go to school.

I really need to brainstorm/storyboard for my visual essay for Digital Video. I'm thinking about doing somebody setting the table for dinner and pouring drinks and stuff. I'm not sure though. I need to think about it.

Okay, yeah, it's now like 2:52 PM and I wrote the above stuff at like 11:50 AM. Anyway. I'm on the plane at the moment and while I don't have internet, I forgot to publish the post, 'cause Anthony came into my room to talk to me and yeah. :P So I still have this open. Yeah. Um. Not much else to say 'cept I feel like I have a ton of homework but I don't at the same time. =D

See you laaater.

My backpack weighs like 80 pounds. *dull look*

Saryn Cried Because of the Plastic Lemons

Listening to: Say This Sooner by The Almost
What I Should Be Doing: My Self-Evaluation for Digital Video

This song is my brother's ring tone. x) Whenever his phone rings, I go "ILOVETHATSONG,HUNTER!" and he just looks at me funny. =)

School's boring and awful and I wish it was the weekend or next Tuesday or at least Friday. Fortunately, it's almost Thursday, which means the week's just about over. :D

Okay, like two years ago, while I was just really getting into music, I was obsessed with country music. It was ALL I listened to. Toby Keith, Tim McGraw, Brooks and Dunn, Kenny Chesney, Pat Green, Rascal Flatts, Sugarland, George Straight, and Jimmy Buffett. Yup. And then around Christmas, I started reading band fanfiction and from a few Simple Plan stories, I checked out random videos of them. Not their music, but just random stuff like this or this. And then I started listening to the music and I was like "ILOVETHISSOMUCH." And eventually, I started listening to other bands... I started listening to MCR, because my sister told me they were playing in our city and I was like "I only like one song by them and they swear." And yeah, I went home, looked up their music and basically fell in love with 'em. I ended up going to that concert. xD Awesome, man. CRAZY AWESOME. Anyway. I never listen to country or Simple Plan anymore, and I definitely don't listen to My Chemical Romance as much as I used to.

Wow! I just wasted a bunch of time! *parties*

Uh. I have to go pick up my Psychostick CD tomorrow. And pick my friend's CD up for her. =) All Time Low, man. I'm so lazy though... I don't wanna walk down there. :D It takes like 30 minutes to go and get back, but still...

I wish it was next Tuesday.

I should go do homework. =) ADIOS!

I Know Who Pete Wentz Is. *beam*

Listening to: Dear Maria by All Time Low
What I Should Be Doing: Homework. x(

Okay. Today was bad and good at the same time. I forgot to bring my camera to Digital Video this morning, which was okay, since we didn't need to film anything else, but I had to move a ton of stuff, which was really boring. And then in English class, I realized I didn't know any of the stuff that we were s'posed to look over. 'Cause I didn't. 'Cause I wasted time instead. Anyway. My next like three classes were boring, including free period. Lunch was good but my stomach hurt afterward. And then chemistry was boring. But history was better, 'cause I didn't do anything but look over my test and goof off with my friend. xD Then I had to go retake a chemistry test. [I got an 85 on the first one, but I felt like I coulda done better.] I think I did better the first time. But oh well. xP

Uh. Yeah. I had to borrow my friend's cell phone 'cause I forgot mine at home [because I dropped it in the dogs' water bowl yesterday and had to air it out]. Turns out my mom's already at school so I open my locker to grab my books to go home and there's this envelope with my parents' names on it. I took it and gave it to my mom right then... And it turns out I have detention. Because my parents get me to school late. Like, I'm ready at 7:20 and they don't leave until 7:40 and I get to my first class at 8:01. *dull look* 2 minutes late 2 days in one week and they give you detention. At 7 AM. I'm not even usually awake then.

So. I have a TON of homework to do, especially for history since I blew that class off today.

Yeah.

... Bob the Butler is Like My Favorite Movie Ever.

Listening to: Those Days You Felt Alive by Spitalfield
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping

Yeah, school still kind of stinks. I can't wait till Friday... Last week felt like FOREVER and the weekend went by WAY too quickly. =( And we almost had like four tests this week. [Tuesday - Latin and Chemistry; Thursday - AP World History; Friday - English] It's only the fourth week of school... I guess it's not that bad, but it still seems like a lot. Especially since we started reading Beowulf like over the weekend and we're having a test over it this Friday. We didn't read the whole thing, but we read a ton of it in like three days. That scares me.

Latin just sucks. A lot. Unreasonable grading, awful tests, stupid assignments, etc.

According to my friend, I'm very opinionated. I knew that and I didn't. xD I didn't realize it showed so much... Well, I guess it can't be that bad since I've got friends. =P That just kind of surprised me.

Uh. I can't wait till this weekend. I feel like I have plans for some reason, but I can't remember them... 3 PM on Friday can't come soon enough. This week's taking a long time.

We're filming in my digital video class. I like the class so far, but I really haven't learned anything except the technical names for everything. Like 'extreme wide shot' and 'medium close shot' and 'roll tape' and 'gaffer.' I'd like to learn about composition and lighting and the equipment and how to do like everything. xD But it's still good. I have fun. =)

I really want Psychostick's CD... Beer and ABCDeath both MAKEMYLIFE. ILOVETHEM. And I really like a lot of the other songs tooo... xD I wonder if I can order that... =)

Yeah. I got a $50 iTunes gift card yesterday [I begged my parents to go to the store and buy me one with my own money and it finally happened] and spent it REALLY fast. I love my music. xP I actually want like 7 more songs now, too. xP That's sad... Ah well. Christmas's coming up. Okay, not really.

Christmas and Thanksgiving break will be SOOOO nice.

Okay, I'm gonna go to bed, I think. xD

I really like the song from the 'ska dancing' video. *happy*

YOU LOOKA LAKA MAN FROM CIWWAF!

Listening to: Stand Down by Echoing August

I'm currently writing a review for American Graffiti, which, by the way, we had to go to like four movie stores to find. It took us like thirty minutes. Which stinks. xD Either all the copies were out or there was only a tape, and our VCR died a few years ago. =) It's a pretty good movie, though really confusing, and I still don't know some of the character's names. I watched it with my mom, who hadn't seen it, and she missed a few scenes and it was almost impossible to explain them to her since so much happens so quickly. :P I liked it though. Now if I can finish up this movie review...

School's boring. And icky. And I hate clubs. But the french teacher looks like this guy from Cute Is What We Aim For. So that makes me happy. And I know a kid named Jesus, which TOTALLY makes my life. Though he seems kinda annoying. Oh well.

I can't wait for the new Motion City Soundtrack CD to come outtt. I really wanna buy it. I should probably find out the name, 'cause I've forgotten, and check to see which day it comes out. [I've heard the 15th and the 18th.] I like the few songs I've heard... I can't wait to check it out though. Wish they were coming to my city, not just the one an hour away.

Which reminds me. I was gonna go to a Powerspace concert on a Friday night, and I was really excited about it, but it turns out I'm going to my dad's that day so I can't go... I'm really upset that I can't go, 'cause it'd be really neat to see them live before they get too big. *sigh* Ah well... Hopefully I'll have another opportunity. =(

Yeah. I'm gonna go since it's like almost midnight and I'm not done with homework and I totally should be. Ah well. Tomorrow's gonna suck, but I'm SO glad it'll be Friday. *dances* SOOOOO glad. I've been waiting for Friday all week.

McDonalds Gets Old Fast

Listening to: Slow Down by The Academy Is...

I know I should be excited for the The Academy Is... concert, which is in almost exactly a month, especially since I've been listening to a lot of TAI's music recently, but instead, I'm in an awful mood, 'cause I really want to go see Fall Out Boy again, but the closest concert to us is an hour away and on a Tuesday. Which is not cool. At all. Especially since my parents would let me go if I wouldn't miss school. So I've been trying to convince them that missing like two days really isn't that big a deal, but they don't listen to me very much at all. So I'm really not happy right now. I know that sounds selfish, but they won't even give me a good reason besides "you can't miss school" and then they don't even tell me why I can't miss school. Ugh. And then my mom threatened to not let me go to the TAI concert, so I'm in a really bad mood now.

Happy Labor Day.

We went to my grandparents' lake house this weekend and went tubing. My hand kept rubbing against the handles and I have like four places where I've rubbed the top few layers of my skin off. Well, kind of. xP It hurts pretty badly. I'm supposed to keep it moist and keep bandaids on it, but I'm in too bad a mood to care at the moment.

Yeah. I still have to finish a book for English tonight, so I should probably get off the computer and read, but I reaaaaaaaaaally don't want to. I also need to do like two more problems for Chemistry... I need to staple stuff into my AP World History spiral too, but I don't want to go get the stapler again. Homework's the main reason I haven't posted anything here in like a week. That and just stress. I've had a pretty awful first week.

I need to go pick up/buy This Providence by This Providence from the CD store, 'cause it came in on Thursday. I just haven't had time. I was going to go today, but I wasn't sure it would be open. I hope I have time tomorrow.

I really don't think this year's gonna be fun at ALL. It's started out badly and it just keeps getting worse. *throws sarcastic confetti*

Sorry. I'm in a reaaaally bad mood right now. I haven't said that yet, have I? I'm sure you didn't notice. =P

I think I had something else to say here. Well, I've forgotten it, my feet are cold, and my hands hurt. Oh. I have to bring my camera tomorrow for Digital Video and shoot some scenes for our first project, which REALLY stinks. I don't want to do it at all. I'm like dreading it. I'm afraid I'll mess up or do something wrong or something stupid. Well, it's not like she really taught us how to do anything.