Why Can't I Trust Anyone - No, Not Even Me?

Listening to: I Wanna Do It All by Terri Clark
What I Should Be Doing: Driver's Ed
I'm Also: Wishing I was hanging out/laughing with my friends, wondering why I think about TAI... so much, being thirsty, playing solitaire, writing crud that's pretty dang awful, and waiting for someone to talk to me on Yahoo! Messenger

Super Bowl tickets range from $4,000 to $8,000. I had no idea they cost that much. I wish my sister didn't have softball tryouts, 'cause the Packers are playing and that's my dad's favorite team. He says seeing us is better than football, but I still feel awful and angry at my mom.

Uhm. I want to buy Interventions and Lullabies by The Format and Like Vines by The Hush Sound and some CD by Cobra Starship. I need more money, especially since I'm planning on buying at least two tickets to the HONDA CIVIC TOUR.

I forgot to lend Manola my Powerspace CD and give her back The Higher's CD that she bought but I have.

My bangs are bothering me. I want a haircut.

My laptop's burning my leg right through my jeans.

Okay, another song lyric I wish I wrote:
"We may suffer together, but we all die alone."

I wish I was happy.

I'm lonely.

Funerals are awful, and so are the quiet car rides home. Especially when you're leaving family that you won't see again until someone else dies.

What's wrong with me?

Secondhand Serenade is my new favorite band. Except not. But they make up a good portion of my 'Calm Songs' playlist, and I've noticed that I've been listening to that more than anything else recently.

Bass = Fishies or Guitars?

Listening to: Beer by Psychostick
What I Should Be Doing: Working on Driver's Ed/Nothing. =)
I'm Also: Talking to Allie, reading Sims 2 stories, playing Solitaire, and happydancing because I finally tell the difference between Jesse and Matt from MCS.

I don't get why people think I can write... Or why they think I'm creative, or have artistic talent, or any of that crud.

'Cause I can't write, and I'm not creative, and I don't have artistic talent. xD

But people insist on like pretending I do...

The Cat Empire's Australian and therefore awesome. xP

I want to go to the mall for no reason.

I think my dad's missing the Super Bowl so my babysitter doesn't have to take my sister to softball tryouts.

GO ME. I know who's who in Motion City Soundtrack before. Woo. =P

It only took me like four days of looking at pictures. :

Uh.

Go, Go, Go to the Next Stateline

eListening to: Given Up by Linkin Park
What I Should Be Doing: Sleeping since I haven't gone to bed before midnight at all this week, and doing my Algebra 2 homework since I have 10 insanely long problems left
I'm Also: Wondering where I put my watch when I took it off after my shower and hoping one of my friends will be awesome enough to print out my English questions for me in the morning

Okay, what the heck's up with Ozarka's "Eco-Shape Bottle?" I know it's been like this for over a year, but seriously, man.

"Our bottle looks and feels different because it is purposely designed with an average of 30% less plastic* to be easier on the environment. We can all make a difference, please recycle." [*Versus comparable size, leading beverage brands.]

Will it make a difference if we don't recycle? Like, seriously?

Anyway, I hate the "new" look. It annoys me. It's always falling out of the pocket for water bottles on my backpack and it just looks stupid. Urgh.

Yeah. =) Uhm. I have to go see Brent. I was gonna go today but it gets dark so quickly...

Ah well.

I HATE GRAPHING. SO OBNOXIOUS.

It's not like we'll ever use Algebra 2. *face*

I can see us using Algebra 1 and Geometry, but the second Algebra = no.

Why do I like these three songs by Cobra Starship so much...?

The title's from Eighty-Eights by Farewell. They're pretty awesome.

Antimatter?

Listening to: The fan on my laptop
What I Should Be Doing: Reading Act 3 of Macbeth, reading 50 pages of crud about Augustus for Latin, reading two chapters for WHAP, doing my Algebra 2 homework
I'm Also: Checking my e-mail and playing solitaire

Okay. We were in the library on the computers today in my history class, and my friend Allie went to www.yahoo.com [instead of planning her timed writing like she was supposed to be doing. xD I didn't do mine either...] She said something about really liking that one of the featured articles was called "Clowns 'Universally Disliked' by Children." There were a few other articles, including one called "4 Factors That Make a Man Want To Marry." We were joking around and told her to click on that. She did.

This is what came up:

Four factors that make a man want to marry:
1. Antimatter
2. Antimatter
3. Antimatter
4. Antimatter

I think this is hilarious. xD Also, I Googled 'baby noises' while we were there. Try it. The second link is a "Baby Noises Soundboard" and I find it hilarious for some reason. =D

[What's up with the color? It came out black and wouldn't show up so I had to change it to gray...?]

I'm a loser.

Apparently my friend's CD came in a day early, because Brent left me a voicemail saying it came in today, but it wasn't s'posed to be there till tomorrow...?

HONDA CIVIC TOUR = LOVE.

Listening to: Cemetery Drive by MCR
Screw the other things, I'm too excited.

Okay. I already knew that:
Panic! = Honda Civic Tour

But I just found out that
MOTION CITY SOUNDTRACK + THE HUSH SOUND + PANIC! AT THE DISCO = HONDA CIVIC TOUR.

AND THAT'S LIKE FLIPPING HEAVEN.

I ABSOLUTELY ADORE MCS.

SERIOUSLY.

I've been wanting to see them for like a year. xD I've dreamed about it more than once. =)

Okay, I'm literally shaking with excitement.

I love Panic! and MCS THAT much.

There's a fourth unannounced artist, too. *shakes*

I don't even care who that is, I MUST ATTEND THIS TOUR.

Oh God. =)

"Hilighters are Shoes, Silly!

Listening to: With Me Tonight by The Used
What I Should Be Doing: Working on Driver's Ed or my multiple school projects
I'm Also: Talking to ANNNNNA! and updating Facebook and TRYING to post a video on YouTube and being mad at the Honda Civic Tour manager people.

About the Honda Civic Tour:
"The tour starts on April 10, 2008 in San Francisco, CA, but start planning your musical rendezvous ASAP."
Okay, seriously, they want us to plan our "musical rendezvous ASAP" but they don't have tour dates yet. So how do we plan without tour dates...? WE CAN'T. DUH. Sorry. =)

Anyway. Uh. I think that's all I wanted to say. Yes.

No.

Today, we went and saw Brent. [A.K.A. M.E. and I went to order Cobra Starship's first CD for Anna/buy Boys Night Out's self-titled album.] And M.E. brought this huge leaf with her when she met me at my house because it landed at her feet. So I carried it all the way to the CD store, then to Smoothie King [so M.E. could get her joint and tissue repair fix], then to McDonalds [to get an ice cream cone for me], and then home. And it's on my wall now. But anyway, she was all "Isn't this leaf huge? It fell at my feet so I picked it up and was all 'dude, it's HUGE.'" And Brent's like "Maybe it means that big rewards will fall at your feet!" or something. Later, we were talking about that and M.E.'s like "Way to be a 'the glass is half full' person, Brent."

And then I started thinking that a lot of people in the music industry are "the glass is half empty" people. So. Yeah.

Uh. I'm tired. :)

Today, I met the mom of a guy in a band opening for a local band that I kinda like. I was all "They're opening for them!? AWESOME." But I don't like the band enough to go to their show and I'm lazy. And, yeah.

YouTube's mean.

I don't like getting compliments. At all. I don't want people saying, "You're so pretty!" or "I can see you doing great things!" or "That video's so amazing!" or "Those lyrics are hilarious!"

Hunter's in my room, lying on my bed near my feet, listening to my iPod. And I'm listening to iTunes on my laptop and typing this while he randomly tells me things about venues and bands and "stoner songs" and stuff.

Now my five year old cousin's in year writing on my wall and asking me about how I built one of my science projects. He's cute. =) Though sometimes I don't wanna hang out with him, 'cause I like being alone more than like anything else. I think. I mean, I love my friends and I love throwing parties for my friends [I think I get that from my mom] but I don't like talking to people I don't know very well and a good portion of the time, I don't wanna talk to anyone at all. I don't know, it's weird.

I'd much rather throw a party for one of my buddies than throw a party for myself, which is weird. I tend to dislike my own birthday parties, unless somebody else throws them. I don't want to have a sixteenth birthday party. I'll take seeing Panic! [I REFUSE TO DROP THE EXCLAMATION POINT NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY.] on the Honda Civic Tour as a birthday party. xD

Hunter left.

It freaks me out how many of my family members/my parents' friends watch my videos. Seriously.

I've been biting my tongue a ton when I chew gum lately. It's weird.

The Biggest Thing I've Ever Lost Was My Guitar

Listening to: On Again/Off Again by Riverboat Gamblers
What I Should Be Doing: Filling out my History QQS, rewriting my History timed writing, reading Macbeth for English, working on Chem review questions
I'm Also: Rating all my unrated music on iTunes [I'm OCD about that. xD]

I forgot to turn iTunes off shuffle, so I'm getting a-mazing songs like Unexpected Places by The Academy Is... and Be Aggressive by Powerspace. Not that the songs I haven't rated aren't amazing, 'cause they are. =) Mostly.

I love commas and semi-colons and apostrophes and I'm kind of a grammar freak. It's sad.

It always makes me happy to meet people that like Motion City Soundtrack, Powerspace, The Higher, This Providence, or The Format. I know very very few people that like them. I know one person that might like MCS, two people that like Powerspace 'cause I introduced them to The Kicks of Passion, and no one that likes The Higher, This Prov, or The Format. Even though I only know like nine songs by The Format.

My iTunes has to be sorted by artist, or I get annoyed. All the songs have to be rated. Every song has to have album art, whether that's something I threw together or the actual CD cover. Every song has to have an album and genre, even if that means I make them up. All my songs have to be properly capitalized. All my non-country songs have to be on my Other playlist, and all my non-other songs have to be on my country playlist. Simple Plan is the only exception, and they don't belong on any playlist, because I always skip their songs anyway. On-The-Go playlists can't exist.

There can't be more than four Internet Explorer windows open at one time, though I tend to have at least four tabs open in one. I hate even numbers, because there's no middle number. People must wash their hands before touching my laptop. Sticky things make me angry. My CDs and games must stay in their case, unless they're being used. I will never ever flush a CD to clean it, though I will use toothpaste to fix the scratches. My room can't be too warm. Juicyfruit is for blowing bubbles and snapping gum, and Stride is just for chewing. My CDs must be ordered chronologically by when I bought/received them. Spelling, punctuation, and grammar are important, even on the internet. My toenails can only get so long. I use earbuds to listen to music at school/on the airplane, but I use old clunky headphones that cover my ears at home. All of my headphones, USB cords, cameras, chargers, and Gameboys belong in the red basket on top of the unplugged stereo next to my bed. Sharpies belong in the mug with the pencils that have run out of lead. I only talk to Allie about family issues, and I don't know why. The flash is almost always off on my camera. My black school tie must be returned to the same pocket as my iPod when I take it off. I don't throw anything away, instead giving everything a specific place in my room and keeping it there. Peeling things must be taped over.
You'd think that I'd be like really organized. xD

I'm REALLY REALLY not. =)

I really like my copy of the periodic table of elements for some reason.